Through Mind

Chapter 6

Andrew's POV

I'm still sitting on the bench, reminiscing about the past. I still can't believe that there are a lot of possibilities why I can't communicate with my soulmate. I have been petty, haven't I? Maybe I am jealous and envious of my friends. They already met their own, but why can't I? Sometimes, there are a lot of words that enter my mind. Negative thoughts, and honestly, I can't beat them sometimes, but I promise you, I am trying hard to beat them. It's hard, of course, since the one that I am beating up is not just anybody else's but myself. How difficult can it be to compete with oneself?

I sighed to myself and just looked up in the sky. The sky was too gloomy. It looked like he knew what I had been through. I kept on staring at the sky and felt the wind breeze hit my face. I smiled, a sad one. How I wish that my soulmate was here beside me, holding my hands while he rested his head on my shoulder. I had imagined a lot of sweet things together with him. Eating in every place that he wanted, binge watching the dramas and movies that we both wanted. Kissing in the rays of the sun. How beautiful of a couple can we be?

But a sudden jolt had just hit me. This is the reality: he is not with me, he is not here beside me. I didn't know if it was the rain or if it was just my tears flowing from both of my eyes. I sobbed my heart out. Everything has been piled up since I knew that my friend had already met their soulmate. I felt so lonely. I am so happy for them since they already found their other halves. If they already

met theirs, why can't I?

"Open your eyes, son. You already met him. Just feel you heart. You can be happy, soon."

I suddenly opened my eyes when I heard that voice. Who the hell is that? I roamed my eyes around the park to see who it was, but I saw nothing. I was nervous. Who is that? It gives me a chill through my whole body. I don't know who it is. Is there a ghost here?! I am panicking terribly here! I planned to go home now, and when I stood up, there was a hand on my shoulder. I jumped in shock! Who will it be?! I faced the owner of that hand, and I saw a middle-aged woman, and she suddenly smiled at me.

"You look troubled, son. Wanna talk?" I don't know what to replied to her. I guess she knows that I am contemplating that is why she said, "Don't worry, I'm not gonna hurt you." After that I've found myself sitting on the bench again and she was here beside me.

"You want to talk now?" she said to me.

"Uhm. I have a question, Ma'am." I said. "What it is?" she replied.

"What is it like to fall in love?" I seriously asked her, and the way she smiled, there was something that sparked within me when I saw that.

"There are a lot of interpretations of falling in love, son," she started. " For other people, it is wonderful; for someone else, it is not. For someone, it's only full of hatred and pain, but for others, it is full of happiness. It depends on the person." She stopped and smiled at me.

"But for me? It feels exciting and new, it feels euphoric. " And she giggled. " Before, I didn't care about time, but when I see the man of my life? All of that changed, in the middle of my busy schedule, I make sure to made time for him. I don't mind making sacrifices for him because that's what love is. You are always making sacrifices to make your relationship work. Being in love doesn't mean that you are always happy. There are instances when both of you fight, but that is what makes your relationship happy." I just

listened to her. I want to hear more, honestly, that's why I asked more to cure my curiosity.

"Is that person your soulmate, Ma'am?" I finally asked. I saw how her body stiffined and she sighed, a sad one.

"No, he's not." She said, with a sad smile plastered on her lips. I was too stunned to speak, and she looked at me. "My soulmate? He died. And it was all because of me. I didn't dare listen to his explanation. He died all because of me. " Tears started to fall from her eyes.

"Ma'am..."

"My soulmate was a muted one." She said, "I kept on sending him messages since I was a child, but he didn't reply to any of my messages. I kept on doing that until I was in high school. There were a lot of times that it made me frustrated, but I didn't stop, and one day, I received a message from him. I was so happy and I replied right away, but since that message from him, it hasn't followed anymore. I got tired when I entered college. " She sighed.

"The table had turned," she continued. " He kept on messaging me but I refused to answer, when the messages stopped, I thought he got tired. After that, he keeps on sending me sweet messages, it made me feel butterflies on my stomach but pride kept me on ground." she's now sobbing that's why I patted her back. She bites her lips and continued.

"But a certain message made me run towards him. He's dying, son. My other half was going to die. I immediately went to the hospital, and there I saw the man of my life. Lying on the hospital bed, almost dying. The doctor diagnosed him as being a neglected soul, and it was all because of me and also on that day. I lost him." Seeing her cry pained me.

"And after that incident, I kept my distance from other people until this one guy kept on pestering me. After years of courtship, I got married to him. That's why I promised him that I would treat him right. I will love him with all of my heart because he deserves it. He deserves all the love and care in the world," and she looked at me, " That's the lesson that I've always carried until now."

"Promised me, son." she held my hand, "Promise me that you will treat your soulmate right, always make him feel that he deserves all the love and care that you gave to him." Him?

"I'm going now, son. Your soulmate is a muted one." I didn't hear the last sentence. I was too stunned and I just saw her entering the forest. It made my forehead furrowed and my head starts to hurt.

Why I can't remember her face? Weird.

I guess I'm just too tired. That's why I decided to go home now, and it's going to be too late. I stood up from where I sat and started to walk home. I put both of my hands in my pocket and a lot of things kept on entering my empty head. I just walked and walked until I reached our apartment. I got my spare key and opened the door knob, but before entering, I think someone was looking at me.

My evening was getting weirder. I shook my head, and I finally entered our shared apartment. I went straight to my bedroom and sat down on my bed. I just stared at my ceiling and before I knew it, my bed was lulling me to sleep.

A happy and weird evening, indeed.