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I'm back to my room after speaking to Damien, he didn't seem happy about our little talk earlier, one could tell he wasn't happy one bit about what I said, and that makes me every happy.
He can't expect to treat me However he wants and still expect me to bow down to his every whim and wish. If he wants me to accept the bond then he's going to know that I'm not going to make things easy for him, I'm going to fight him every step of the way and keep on making things difficult for him, he's going to regret ever meeting me, he's going to be in regret for the rest of his life, there's nothing I want more than to be free but since I can't have it, since he expects me to sit down and be his prim and proper queen, then I'm sorry to burst his bubble it's not going to work that way, if I can't be happy then he sure shouldn't be, two can play it that way. Once we're bound together it's going to be much easier to frustrate him. whatever I do is going to affect him ten times over since we'll be more connected in a more primal way.
Every thing about us will be more intune and we'll be able to feel each other psychologically.
I'm still thinking about everything that's happened when a maid assigned to handle my affairs ever since Damien started acknowledging me as a person walks in. Her name is Claire and according to Damien she's different from the others in the palace and since he doesn't want to make my stay more unpleasant than it already is, he says she's a smart and hardworking person.
" my princess, you have gifts from the king ". She claps both hands and more people walk in bearing different trays. I stand up and move to a corner. I'm tempted to ask her to return the gifts to that godforsaken king, I want nothing more to do with him than necessary. But I feel like returning the gifts would be like adding more fuel to a burning fire. The situation between me and Damien is a delicate one and I have to respect that for now, if I return this gifts something tells me he'll look for a way to punish me for it one way or the other and I don't need all that drama or rather frustrations now.
My mother's life is on the line and I have to keep on trying my best to behave simply in order to avoid more trouble.
" Thank you Claire and everyone else too, I'm really grateful for everything ". she bids them all farewell, everyone except her maid Claire.
She's surprised to see that there are dresses alongside the things so she asks Claire for more answers.
" what do I do with these ?" she asks Claire seemingly uncomfortable with the dresses.
" is there a ball or something I have to attend? ".
" Well my princess, this is for your mating ceremony ".
" my what? "
" your mating ceremony, princess ". she informs me a little bit nervous she doesn't want to meet my eyes.
" I don't understand what your trying to say to me Claire ".
" the king has fixed a mating ceremony for you both in a week and he has already sent invitations far and wide for everyone to be in attendance to witness you bother being bound to each other eternally princess ".
"He what? ". I'm so shocked, never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine something like this could happen, he's trying to make things more than they are, how could he even think about this.
I've been quiet for a while and I don't even hear Claire continue talking to me, my whole attention has shifted to the other matter at hand. Damien's holding a mating ceremony, that's more than marriage around here, a mating ceremony involves binding your souls eternally together, it binds the people partaking in it till the after life and even after that.
" princess? ". Claire calls with caution.
" yes Claire " my Voice comes out in barely a whisper as I speak to Claire.
" are you okay? ". She asks really concerned.
" I don't want to burden you with my problems Claire, don't worry I'll be fine".
" Are you sure about that princess, I can try to spend some time with you, to keep you company ".
" I'll be fine Claire, don't worry, everything is going to be all good ".
" okay then I have to go do something, I'll be back in a jiffy before you know it ". She packs the dresses in the closet and walks out.
Immediately she leaves, I stand up and grab my cloak, I'm off to go see that stupid good for nothing king.