Infinitely Infinite

Chapter-14

Days sprang hastily and things happened between us, these weren't much ethical or fit. Usual stuff, taunting, stolen glances  fighting same hush rush. But i can't sediment that, i started liking him much. Very peewee contraction in my decorum and i estimate, he caught it right, at times!

We were taken to witness the Sigatoka Sand dunes national park, that lies on the island of Viti Levu. I was amazed by the dunes ranging around 20-60m tall. While walking amidst the dunes, something that would delight me whenever thoughts being bagged, happened.

We were walking, through the sand dunes. I was dressed in, palo short pants and a tunic short tops he was in his faded blue jeans and collared, adidas tee. We were walking, talking and something made me to ebb.  I mean, my legs were worn out because of walking long, and i was about to fall, he caught me by wrapping his hand around my wrist. It was a tight grip that made, my heart skip a beat after which our eyes met. The hold tightened, and we stood there for, minutes as if the wrist of mine was handcuffed.  Okay, literally, he was bracing mine. The vision was too deep and it was much challengingly crucial for us to handle. I could feel myself, by looking into his eyes. I have never been close to anyone. We're just a hairline apart. As a shrink, i had looked into my patients' eye, while examining but this is something different. His  nose, was about to touch mine, that's when i came back to the present and whispered, 'Ta.. Tarun'

He rebounded to the prompt, only when i called his name in undertone. I was breathing heavily, if i could convert the rate of my heartbeats into sand dunes that would be tallest. He dislocated his gaze from mine, with guilt,

'So.. So.. Sorry ' he muttered, caressing his hair, in his usual swag . I still didn't come back to normal, i turned to see him he was moving forward, dashing the sand with nike sneakers, as if nothing had happened. So, i am the one who senses, everything strange and feels for him. He is not! He is the same old Tarun. But why?! Why i felt blessed , when i saw him. Why  i felt like i was born for him? Why did the innervation, got clinged to my heart and soul like anything! Is it possible, for a girl to fall for a man in such a diminutive prolongation.? I can't seriously, conclude even at that if the feeling was true, because since my infancy, i haven't been this much enervated or feeble. Heera, the thing is going out of your hands! I warned myself! Seepage of oxytocin and dopamine were too much and my hormones were shouting hard that, i had fallen. Down in the dumps, honest truth was i can't accept it myself or to anyone else. It was like, those eyes were contrived  for me, only for me to gawk in, and those hands were craving all these days to grip mine. His lips were, beating slightly and i haven't found such a chaos, on his face ever before. It was alluring and ambrosial to have that celestial, devout man near by me. I felt like, i was born for this very near sight of his eyes and the soul avidity and voracity, of this birth got rendered up! Enough of all cinematic, feckless, impractical thoughts Heera! I gave a talk to  myself for the N-th time, but still my heart didn't seem like it got convinced. Deep into my heart, all these got adhered, latched onto the soul. For the first time, in my life. Tarun, i am falling for you! Actively, stoutly, earnestly!

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I fervently had no essence about what made me, to catch up her hand when she was about to smooth along. Eyes caught up! Clinched, entwined with  a durable, hale nexus! I resumed back, only when she uttered my term, i hastily murmured that i was sorry when actually i was not. A smile got plastered to my face and heart, and i had no other way to hide it from her other than drifting away from her. She stood there for few more seconds, and then followed me.

The next day, we went kayaking. I was waiting for her to come. Finally, she arrived and stood upright infront of me. Spine tinglingly  beautiful and gaudy. She was dressed in her navy blue denim and black, grey striped kaftan top. Her bouncy,  waist long hair was left, free. We both casted off to the other shore and, leased a cab to go to the place of kayaking.

When we went there, and got into the boat with our life vests. She installed herself, infront of me. There was only single paddle to sweep against the water , on the kayak and we decided to propel the paddle, on the either side. She was too handy, in the way that her hair flew, due to the gust of the air in the vicinity.

I can tell you the gospel truth. Trust me, without any diffidence or wavering, i can pledge that, all the bossy, high and mighty character of mine would deprive and fade away, confronting the way her hair strands flew and tingled my face. I have heard, people saying that women's hair strands have their own, scent. Who cares about the whole woman community, this girl has some pheromone and fragrance of efflorescence, that i would die for. I whiffed, a long breath in, closing my eyes, fully blown out. I then, gently carried away the strands of her hair, that was flying, fondling and kissing my face. Being hooked up, in venerating her hair, i had totally, lost sight of the paddle out of which the kayak didn't move forward.

She then turned to me hurriedly and called my name. For the most incipient time, my name smoked out to be anapestic and idyllic.

'Tarun, why did you take your phalanges, off the paddle. Come on, man. Are you reveriering?! ' she mumbled.

I gained my conscious, and came back from adoring this duchess. I then continued, propelling the paddle. I didn't know, if i should agape my lips to talk. But when i tried, i realized that something was choking my throat. Ok, Tarun. You're not in your conscience now so don't talk, otherwise you would gabble something, that would ruin everything . Also, finding it too difficult to talk, i remained shut!

All were crosswise . Nothing except the wedding, was happening as i thought! The soul reason of this wedding, was not to interpret in eachother's life, but now what's happening?! Jeez! This shouldn't be transpiring. I closed my eyes and exhaled a large amount of air out, that could lead me to death!

After a week at Fiji, we returned back home. Actually, the trip was for two weeks but i zealously realized and it was too unnerving that, i started falling for her

. I somehow convinced Akshay and and asked him to prepone the ticket and we flew back.

It was the seventh month, of my married endurance. I know, though this period my life couldn't bannered as the best, i came to know that, this girl is making me yearn her hatred but no one knows that, she has special place in my heart and soul.  I, myself can't agree it even now,because i was cent percent zealous that, she didn't like me or love me.

Everyday when, i came back home all these days during mid tens, she would be sleeping either on the bed or couch, according to that day's schedule. But when i entered my room today, she was curling up on the recliner couch, with running nose. I scrutinized her face, she was lying down, hugging a tissue paper role and i discerned that, her nose was flaming salmon,with blubbering, waterworks in her eyes. What's wrong?! As i espied, she pulled off a tissue, wiped her tears, wiped off her crimson red nostrils, thrashed away the junk and then holding over to the same process, over and over.

I didn't bother to ask her, why she was doing so. I strolled into the privy, came back to the bed in a jiffy. When, i repelled back to the room and landed myself on the bed, i caught up that, she had flaked out.

The only thing, that i could i sense was, the inability of me to see her in this way. I didn't know, what was troubling her, inwardly. Then the realization hit me, that particular dawn she was ought to take Maya to the physician for her health check up and then, storm to the government officer to seek permission to set up her own infirmary. That morning, when she informed me the thing, her eyes glowed out of pride that she is gonna build her dispensary. I remember that day, when my mom told about her, that she was earning hard to set up her own hospital.

I was deeply, pierced into the thoughts of finding the reasons for her woe after realizing that her gail is hefty enough to k****e mine . That's when my phone jingled. It displayed, Maya's name and when i swiped the green option, something that Maya said to me made me fury and blow up!