Once I had exited the room I quickly dropped to my knees and scrubbed the floor as fast as I possibly could. I didnt need another reason for Alpha Caleb to beat me. Once completed I stood and admired the beautiful gleaming floors before putting my cleaning supplies away.
Head tucked down into my chest, I hurriedly walked as fast as one could with broken ribs, towards the basement. In other words, the only room Alpha Caleb saw fit for me to reside in. It was dark, the only light available shining through 1 tiny window the size that only a small child could possibly squeeze through.
As I descended down the stairs I took a glance around the room. In one corner of the room was where I slept every night, on top of flattened cardboard with a dirty tattered blanket. Apart from my "bed", the only other items in the room were a sink with a cracked mirror and my backpack. The bags contents contained my locket that I had hidden for obvious reasons and ripped, dirty clothing that had been kindly "gifted" to me from Alpha Caleb.
Reaching the bottom of the stairs I made my way towards the sink.
Slowly lifting the left side of my top I glanced at my lifeless body. Bruising had already started to show where my already protruding ribs were showing. My body disgusted me. I was severely undernourished and underweight. My skin filthy with bruises and dirt, a few grazes here, cuts along my wrists from my failed attempts and a busted lip. I didnt know how much more I could possibly take of the torture I receive daily. Ending my life would be the best outcome. I'd no longer have to endure the punishment from Alpha Caleb and the rest of his pack. My soul would be free and at peace. I'd be with my parents. Where I belonged.
Pulling my top off, I turned the tap on and used the two to bathe myself. I was not allowed to use the pack showers because I was not worthy. There was no hot water or electricity in the basement because that was a privilege that I didnt deserve, according to Alpha Caleb.
Goosebumps formed as the chilled fabric came into contact with my bare skin, causing my teeth to chatter. Making sure I was careful when cleaning my ribs I continued to find ish giving my body a once over, finishing with splashing some water over my tired face. Rinsing the top, I ringed out as much water as possible before laying the top out to dry on the dirty floor. I had no choice. Wasn't like I could hang my rags on the clothes line or put it in a dryer. Once i had cleaned myself up as much as I possibly could have, I walked over to my bed, crouched down and curled myself into the fetal position with my blanket hugging my frail frame. Oh Moon Goddess please let me slip away in the peaceful night. Please.
"Please don't give up Autumn. We have to stay strong, we can't let him break us. We will make him pay for what he's done one day but for now you have to trust me. It will get better".
Aurora was right. We couldn't let him get away with this but in all honesty, I really didn't know how much more i could take not only physically, but mentally and spiritually also. "It's not that I disagree with you Aurora, I'm just not sure how much more of his s**t I can handle." I said through silent tears. I hate my life. I hate him. I hate this pack. But I'll try. For you. For us. I'm sorry you got stuck with such a pathetic loser for a human." Aurora snarled. "You are NOT pathetic Winter and you are definitely not a loser. You're beautiful, strong, caring and intelligent. So I dont want to hear you speak of yourself in such a degrading way again. I'm proud to be your wolf and honored to be a part of someone as brave as you. Not many would have held on this long. And yet, here you are."
"Thank you, Aurora. Goodnight." Autumn mumbled as she drifted into a slumber where her mind was free from the prison in her conscious world. "Sweet dreams Winter. Tomorrow is a new beginning for us." Aurora said before falling to the back of Winter's sleeping mind.
A.N If you're still here reading thanks guys. I'll try to update twice a week if not more. I'm a mother to a toddler so my writing schedule basically works around my child's needs. But anyways that's all from me for now, let the story continue..