Chapter 5
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Danielle's POV
Damn it! I should have seen it coming.
The moment I set my foot on my first period, I knew something's wrong. How could I be so fool not to think that she, Samantha Mckenzie wont be my student wtf!
After my encounter with Sam's class, everything was a blur. The moment she saw me she really was so shocked. Confusion, pain and betrayal can be seen in her eyes and it was my presence that caused it.
When Professor Grace was introducing me to their class, Sam was so lost in her thoughts and Im not sure if she heard anything to what the former professor has been telling them. I dont know how to address the situation so when the former professor left the room, it was time for me to tell my students what they will be expecting from me during the semester, I know she is listening but I just cant look at her because Im scared.
I like Sam, I am in love with her since my mom told me stories about her. I thought I could have a chance with her, we we're so happy during our dates and I know she was enjoying my company like how I was enjoying hers. We even have another date tonight because she has something to tell me, and I... I wanted to ask her tonight to be my girlfriend but this happened damn it!!!!!!
When the bell rang, she packed her things and left the room immediately as if she was being burned inside the room. I had a glimpse of her face but her expression was unreadable. I badly wanted to grab her hand, hug her tight and tell her that everything will be fine, that I will be here no matter what. But how can I do that now?
Despite what happened earlier, I still managed to continue my day and give the best smile I could muster for my students and since I am the teacher, I made sure not to mess up my first day at work. After my encounter with Sam, I haven't seen her anymore. Maybe she went home, or she was just busy with her classes or maybe, she just didn't want to see me so she's avoiding me.
The latter thought, well... I hope not because thinking Sam doesn't want to do anything with me anymore definitely hurts and ughhhh I dont know anymore.
Im currently on my way home now. This day is really stressful and Im so tired. But remembering my date with Sam tonight, brought a smile on my face. Wait... should I call her if we're still on about our date? Or did she cancelled it after what happened? Should I wait for her or should I go to her house instead?
After much time of debating, I decided to just wait for her to come.
So I wait.
Wait
Wait
And
Wait
But there was no Samantha that showed up.
Of course, what am I even expecting right? She's mad, Im her teacher and she is now my student...
I just didn't expect this things to happen between us. I understand if she's mad or shocked, I am too. But can't she atleast be mature enough to come to me so we could talk this out?
You i***t! You didn't even talk to her, dont act as if you're mature enough! Yeah right!
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Im so restless today. I waited for Sam the whole night but she didn't come. I even went to her house but her car wasn't there in her driveway. Where could she be? Did she wait for me as well? Oh s**t no way!!! Why didn't I even think about it last night? Damn it! Im so stupid.
My mind is all over the place, Im gonna see her on my first period and I dont know what would be my reaction? Should I ask her to stay behind after class? Or Im just gonna let her go as if we dont know each other and forget everything that happened between us? Send help Im going crazy!!!
And there she is, the girl who keeps on occupying my mind for the past days. Upon entering the room, she smiled at me and went to her seat.
My eyes isn't betraying me right? She smiled!!! Yes she smiled!
But it was the kind of smile that doesn't reached her eyes tho. Maybe she was doing it for formality. But one thing is for sure, we are both hurting.
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We were in the middle of my class' activity when someone knocked on the door so all of my students raised their heads to see the culprit and only Sam didn't bother to look, she just doesn't really care maybe or she's lost in her thoughts.
"Uh hi Pro..fessor?! May I speak with Samantha for a sec?" the girl stated as if she was unsure if I am the Professor or not.
What does she want from Sam? I heard that Sam constantly get excused during her classes due to a lot of people sending her a gift or they just want to talk to her to get her attention.
"Is the matter important Miss? Because Sam is doing her activity and refused to be disturbed" I said firmly but the girl pleadingly looked at Sam
"Professor, Im done with my paper so I can talk to her if you'd let me."
"Okay then Sam. Please do it outside my room"
Once Sam left the room, the chatterings in the room started as if the room is full of bees.
I cleared my throat to get the attention of my students and to ask what's going on.
"Professor, that beautiful girl there is Chloe Damien and she's been courting Sam for a very long time now."
"Yeah that's true. Chloe started courting Sam since we started in the uni."
"Chloe and Sam would be a perfect couple. If only Sam would give the girl a chance."
"But our Sam is really hard to crack and Chloe is having a hard time doing that"
Those are the words I've heard from my students and some like they look good together. Yeah they really look good together but why did Sam didn't mention this to me when we had a talk?
I felt a pang in my chest upon imagining Sam and Chloe would end up together. But who am I to not allow that right?
Bitch! As if you'd really allow that.
Sam is everything, everyone could asked for. She is the complete package so there will be so many boys and girls who'll fall for her. And I.. Im one of those. But sadly, Im her teacher now so I couldn't do that. I don't wanna ruin my career and I don't want to put a stain on Sam's name.
Maybe Chloe will be the perfect girl for her. It will hurt me to the core yes, but if it will make Sam happy then Im willing to let go.
But I don't really want to let go damn it!!!!!
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