I can't take this anymore. This is so bad, much more than I could have ever imagined.
But if it would make Daddy Christian happy again, I would do it all over for him. I think to myself as I lay down in bed.
But I can't do more of these sessions. I would rather die.
I will sort this out my way. I can't let daddy take the blame for whatever I did.
And it's true, it is all my fault actually. I patiently wait for Daddy to leave the room and then I quietly go and pick up the home phone.
Sorry daddies. I love you both x
I know you both will be like thermonuclear mad at me but I have to do this. I'll miss Ana and Kev.
There is no other way.
I think about the videos I saw over the internet the other day.
I take a deep breath to calm myself down.
And I remind myself that I might be a
