I turn around and they are gone. I sit and the breakdown and cry like a little. For the first time, it sinks in that I am alone and I am already missing my family. But I take comfort in the thought that all of them are safe. They will be happy too. They will be fine. I hope Jay goes to take the poison shot when he is supposed to, I will make sure Hamlyn ensures that although thankfully that's not in the near future. He has some kind of tantrums when he has to. It's always a fight. Every single f*****g time. Also, I have no idea how will he manage to take care of three littles alone and work on top of that. Kevin will miss me the most right now. He is slightly more comfortable with me than he is with Jay. I hope he realizes how much I love him and how much I am going to miss him.
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