The sad memories
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The worst thing is to remember the happy moments in a time of sorrow. People do not understand other people's pain until they feel it. No one feels the shivers crawling on their backs while they are constantly in the same uncertainty. Uncertainty that is actually slowly becoming a habit. Habit with which you get up and fall asleep. Uncertainty interwoven with little hope and much pain. Too many questions and no answers. Too many NOs, and no YES. The only consolation is that everything will pass. Maybe. Maybe comforting yourself with the fact that time heals makes it easier? However, time only takes the past away, but the past still lives in us. You can not go forward without looking back at the past. . It is always in us, in a certain part of our heart, mind, body… You can not forget a moment in which you were so happy, no matter how much in the future that moment will make you forget it. How do you delete so many pictures from your head, pictures you have been taking for so long? To delete and throw them away at once?
She could not find the strength to forget and hate you. Because he deserved it. But just as no one gave her what she deserved, so she could not give him what he deserved - hatred and contempt. Defeat is not to be hurt once. It is a defeat to constantly fall into the same mess as always and never be able to get on track. To move in the opposite direction on a one-way street and at the same time to complain that you can never reach the goal. That is a defeat. Constantly and constantly. Over and over again. The river flows down, not up. She did not have the strength to change the course of the river. That would be supernatural. It's something that is out of her reach. And yes, the worst feeling is when the whole fairy tale you imagined turns into the worst nightmare. But it is a nightmare that does not pass. A nightmare that is equal to reality. Nightmare you are going through…
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