You're so used to being mistreated, that you allow yourself to be in the hands of people who will hurt you. Because happiness is not something you're used to.
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"Eliza you do not know what your getting yourself into! You know how I adore Ida. Yet this- this is preposterous!! And the way she dresses! Where did you pick this girl up from? Let me guess, that orphanage in Toronto. Eliza if you would have come to me for advice - which you very much should have. I would have told you this is a bad idea, no this is a bad idea. Having an orphan is risky enough. No no no. I can not, and I will not. You must send her back. You NEED to send her back right away. Before she murders you all from burning the house down like that boy did in just the town next over. Or what if she
