I walked into the Pastor’s Office to meet the pastor, his
wife, Mary and a church elder discussing happily. They all
smiled at me as I walked in. The pastor quickly stood up,
offering his hand for a handshake. “my heart is overjoyed.
Sister Mary’s testimony really made my day. I’m so happy
for you. She’s a wonderful woman. You are blessed” he
said as we shook hands, while his wife and Mary nodded
happily.
I was filled with rage, very angry with the pastor for not
even giving me the opportunity to confirm Mary’s
testimony. Perhaps he did it with good faith, because he
might have felt Mary wouldn’t have announced our
relationship in the church if I never sanctioned it. I bit my
lips, nodding like a drugged rat. The church elder stared at
me strangely, his eyes fixed on me as if he was seeing a
vision.
“I have to pray for God’s favour on you and our dear sister,
though you still will need to keep an appointment with me
on Saturday. There are lots of things we need to discuss,
because as you know, you are not yet a full fledged
member of this church” he said, smiling at me, before
signalling to his wife, Mary and the elder to stand up for
prayers.
After the long prayer, I hurridly left the office, leaving Mary
rudely behind as I dashed for my car where my friend was
waiting for me.
Jboy couldn’t help but laugh his heart out as I sadly told
him all that went through in the pastor’s office.
“o boy I can’t wait to be your bestman” he laughed.
“I go smash your head. Imbecile” I barked jokingly.
Ten minutes later, I dropped him at his apartment before
heading to mine. I really wasn’t in the mood for anything,
not even to listen to jboy’s solution. All I wanted was just to
sleep and think over my life.
I was about dozing off in the sitting room, when my door
bell rang, waking me up. I cursed, scratched my head and
answered the door. Of course it turned out to be no other
person than Mary. She stared at me with fear in her eyes,
her right hand shivered under the weight of a polythene
bag she held. I stood unmoved, blocking her way with an
angry stare.
She nervously watched me for some seconds, not knowing
what to make of my mood.
“What’s up with you?, What’s happening?. What did I do
wrong?” She asked with a frightened voice. I scoffed,
drawing back a little, putting more fear into her with my
behaviour. I was very determined to end everything that
moment. I wasn’t scared of the consequence nor any bit
scared of hurting her christian heart. All I cared for was
myself and myself alone. She meant nothing to me.
“I beg of you. In God’s name, what’s happening?” she asked
again. Tears quickly formed in her eyes, but I wasn’t
perturbed. I was very determined and cold.
“Mary I don’t want to see you ever again. It’s over between
us” I said slowly, watching her reaction keenly. She drew
back with surprise. Her mouth opening with great disbelief.
“what?, I don’t understand you Bro. Ken. I thought we
were…” she desperately tried to say something, but I
interrupted her, nodding with a crazy smile.
“you heard me right” I murmured.
“I beg of you, let’s talk this out. Just thirty minutes of your
time is enough. I think I deserve such. Please” she quickly
begged, controlling her tears and displaying a fake smile. I
stared at her for some seconds, shrugged and obliged.
Quietly she walked into my sitting room, carefully sat on a
sofa and faced me.
“Please tell me the truth?, what’s behind your sudden
change in behaviour. I’m an adult, please hide nothing
from me” she begged with a calm grace, staring at me with
eyes filled with dashed hope. I drew close and held her
hands. “we have to end this because I’m not comfortable
with you anymore. I don’t love you, let’s just be friends” I
said slowly. She breathed deeply, and drew back a bit.
“just like that?. No Bro. Ken. Born-again Christians don’t
behave that way. Tell me?, why the sudden change of
heart. I don’t just understand. Today is Sunday of all days,
please be serious” she managed to murmur with disbelief.
I rubbed my face and swallowed hard.
“You have to get going now. Please I need a little peace” I
barked, dragging her strongly on her feet. My action totally
surprised her. She tried to resist but I was stronger. Tears
quickly drew down her cheeks.
“Why are you doing this to me?, why are you shattering my
hopes. You don’t love me anymore, but why, it isn’t fair.
God is watching” she cried as I pushed her out of my
apartment.
I felt miserable but satisfied, paying no attention to her
cries as she banged on my locked door asking for another
chance.
As I returned to the sofa, my eyes fell on the nylon bag she
brought. I quickly grabbed it in order to flung it out of my
apartment, but unfortunately the hand tore, pouring a well
prepared meal of rice, chicken and salad in my sitting room.