The phoenix wolf will rise

Going back to hell

“Babe, meet me in my office when you're ready. I want to discuss some things with you Brad and Chad” he tells me while he leans in to kiss me softly. “Okay,” I tell him and he walks out of the room with a satisfactory smile. Last night was another rough f**k and I feel sated. I slowly make my way to the bathroom and take a shower, I slowly get ready and join him an hour later in his office. “Hey, babe” he smiles at me “hey,” I say and walk over to him. He drags me onto his lap and kisses me sweet “missus, has stopped brooding” Brad says and smiles at me. I smile “Sorry, for being a b***h” I tell both Brad and Chad. They shrug “part of the job. You just didn’t let us when we tried to help,” they say “Well, it was kind of personal between me and Derek so,” I tell them and they nod in understanding. “Glad you figured it out,” Chad says and smiles “so, what did you want to talk about?” I ask him. “Well, remember that I wanted to take you back and all and that I said I would figure something out, seeing as our main pack lands are there?” he asks me “yeah?” I answer him. “I think I figured something out. Just want to know if you are okay with that” he says and I nod “Okay?” I answer him. He stands me up and then he walks over to one of the shelves and grabs a big paper from between the books. He lays it open on his desk, it is a map “So, this red line indicates our pack lands.” He says and grabs a pon from a chessboard and puts it down “This is where our main packhouse is at the moment. In the heart of the pack lands.” He says and grabs another pon and places it on the map “This is where we are now.” He says and then points to a spot in the middle “I could move the main packhouse here, there is nothing in between the two cities but woods, we would need to build a new packhouse, but that way we are in between the two cities, which also gives us better control over any rogues that live in the cities” he explains. “But it’s also the woods that you took when you ran away, I am not sure how you feel about that,” he says while looking at me. “I’m not sure actually. I think I need to think a bit about it” I tell him and he nods “This is a proposal nothing is set in stone. Take as long as you need” he says and kisses my forehead “Thank you. I’m gonna go for a walk while I think about it” I tell him and he nods “Want me to come?” he asks “no, need to think on my own for a bit” I tell him and he nods “All right” he answers me and smiles. I walk out and start my walk towards Julia. I knock on her door softly ‘you in there’ I mind-link her ‘come in’ she answers me and I open the door ‘could you come with me?’ I ask her and she nods. We walk outside together into the woods, when we are out of earshot “Derek, is planning to move the main packhouse” I tell her, she frowns “Why? the main packhouse is on the most ideal spot for the pack lands” she says “I thought so” I say and sigh “What is it?” she asks “he is moving it for me. I don’t want to go back there.” I tell her and she frowns “Have you been back there since you left?” she asks and I shake my head “no, I haven’t” I tell her and she nods “This move will cost a lot of money, but if you really can’t go back I understand why he is doing it. It will not be the best move but I don’t think he would do it if it’s really dangerous for the pack. Yes you are important but he has to think about his pack as well” she explains I nod “I think I want to try and go there. Derek wouldn’t let me I think. Would you come with me?” I ask her “of course” she says and smiles “When do you want to go?” she asks. “how about now? Before I chicken out” I say with a sheepish smile “Okay, like wolves?” she asks and I nod. We undress and fold our clothes and we both turn. ‘I am going for a run with Julia. Won’t be back for a while’ I mind-link Derek ‘all right, babe. Be safe’ he mind-links me back. ‘told Derek we are going on a run’ I mind-link her ‘all right’ she answers me and we start running.

A few hours later we arrive at the edge of the city ‘you okay?’ she asks. ‘yeah’ I tell her and lead her around to my old house, I walk into the backyard ‘this was my prison’ I tell her and she quietly follows me inside. It is a dump, hasn’t been looked after in years. I walk inside and turn back, Julia follows. We walk upstairs to my old room and I hand her some of my old clothes. “They reek,” she says while scrounging her nose “Sorry, no one has been here in 3 years,” I tell her and she nods. I look around my old room, and funny enough it feels nostalgic. I walk downstairs and outside looking at the front door from outside. Julia follows me quietly “Remember those carvings in my stomach and legs?” I ask her she hums “it happened the day I met Derek. I came home after school, told me I was late.” I explain and open the door “he dragged me by my hair downstairs, telling me why I reeked of a guy” I tell her and walk to the basement. She follows me “He tied me up to that chair and carved my stomach first, I blacked out and when I woke up my legs were carved as well,” I tell her and she growls lowly. “this is where he would take me when he was in the mood to hurt me. He carved me with knives, he always made sure my face was fine because I needed to go to school. He used this whip on my back frequently.” I tell her while picking it up. I drop it to the ground ‘babe, you okay? I feel your mood, and you seem far away?’ Derek mind-links me ‘I am okay. Memory lane’ I tell him ‘okay, find me if you need me’ he tells me ‘I will’ I tell him and walk back upstairs. “My room was my haven. Always taking cold showers to make sure it wouldn’t swell too badly.” I tell her and sigh. “I have barely seen anything of the living room or kitchen. Always in the basement or my room, and when I went to school, the bullying and hitting started again. until I met Derek, they suddenly stopped and I felt at peace for the first time in my life” I tell her while walking back outside again. I look at the house and imagine it going up in flames, flames start to burn away the house and I keep looking at it seeing my past go up in flames. “The day after the carvings he knocked me out and dragged me to the backyard when I woke up, that’s when I turned for the first time, he tried to collar me. But Acalia saved me and took over, she ran and ran. Eventually, he caught up and Acalia killed him for me. She brought me to Brian and Victoria and I started to heal. And when I finally was healed I went to school. Where I met you and the others, you dragged me to the party and I will be grateful for that for the rest of my life. Since Derek found me there again. As Derek told me once when he first met me I wasn’t ready yet for him, the second time I was. And you have a big part in that, thank you for that” I say and look at her “you’re welcome. You know when you stood in front of the class. All proud I would never have suspected you had a past like this. But I knew there was more to you, I recognized the kind of scars you had, I was curious about you. You drew me in so I befriended you right away” she says and we both chuckle “On second thought, it was probably because you are my Luna that is what drew me to you. I am so happy it did” she says and smiles she hugs me tightly and I hug her back. We watch my prison burn to nothing together and then I walk around the city, feeling free and happy. I make my way to my old college and walk inside. I see some familiar faces and they are all staring at me, I smile back at them. Not feeling any resentment at all, whispers go around the school but I just continue walking to the classroom where I met him. I stand in the hallway looking from the side “This is where he noticed me. I was standing there by the door waiting to be let in. They were the new students so everyone was screaming like banshees and all their attention was on them instead of me for once. When I laid my eyes on him I was mesmerized right away, I was drawn in by his beauty. I didn’t know any better though” I say and smile at Julia who chuckles. “I was always hiding underneath my baggy clothes and hoodies. He started to walk to me but I darted into the classroom, but yeah him being Derek he just sat down next to me. For the first time in my life, I wasn’t scared, normally I was a flinching mess when such a big man was close to me, but that wasn’t the case. I felt safe, he followed me around all day, staying close. If he wasn’t either Brad or Chad were close. The next day was the same but well that night I turned and ran away. “I have seen a lot of abuse in this school, bullying. And knowing they are wolves now, I feel like scolding them. How could they do that to a human? To an innocent human being? They could even smell my discomfort from the pain I had from the abuse at home, they could smell the blood but they still did it. Why? Is what I wonder then you know” I say my thoughts out loud “That is a bit weird indeed” she agrees with me. “It is in the past though, and honestly I am perfectly fine being here now. I didn’t expect that.” I tell her. For another hour we walk around town, I never got to see this town beside the road to and from school between my house. “It’s beautiful here,” I say out loud “You grew up here right?” she asks “Yes, but I was never allowed to go out. Only for school” I explain and she nods. “come on” she says suddenly and walks into the woods. We arrive at a clearing, a big house in the middle, smaller houses around it, and I fall in love immediately. People are milling about and Julia drags me more into the open. People stop what they are doing and turn to look at me. I see a lot of familiar faces, faces who kicked me hard in the corner of a bathroom. They look down guilty even Brianna who was the worst of them all. “Luna” they all whisper and go down on one knee, I sigh. And walk over to Brianna “Just tell me one thing please” I ask and she nods “Why? you could smell my discomfort, the pain radiating off of me, you could smell the blood on my body and clothes. So why?” I ask her. “Honestly, I don’t know. Whenever I saw you a rage came over me, I don’t have that anymore now. But it was bad. When I think back on it I don’t understand it” she says. I frown “A rage came over you? From seeing someone in pain and hiding. Not being able to come up for herself because she couldn’t speak. I was weak from the beatings so I couldn’t fight you. Why the hell would a rage come over you. All of you. To you and myself I was a human, weak, and you werewolves attacked me” I tell them “We don’t understand it either. Suddenly the day when you disappeared, it seems like something heavy disappeared.” Someone else explains. “How late was that?” I ask “ the middle of the night” Brianna replies. “The moment when I killed my captor,” I say, and the lookup with surprise. “If I may?” Julia asks and I nod “I think, there was a spell on you, some sort of spell that made others hate you and hurt you, it was broken when your captor died” she explains “Possibility,” I say and sigh. “I don’t know why, but I do not feel resentment. The question that bugged me the most is now answered.” I tell them ‘why am I getting mind-links that you are at the main packhouse’ Derek mind-links me suddenly. ‘because I am’ I answer him but he doesn’t reply for a while ‘why?’ he asks after a few minutes ‘I needed to come here’ I tell him ‘we’ll talk about it when you get back’ he says ‘we will’ I answer him. “Let’s go back,” I tell Julia who nods. We turn and everyone looks at me in awe. I look at every one of them and nod, then I run and Julia follows me. A few hours later around 8 p.m., we arrive home and Derek is sitting on the porch waiting for me. I walk up to him and nuzzle my face against his knee, he chuckles and pets my head “You okay?” he asks ‘yes,’ I answer him through mind-link. He smiles down at me “come on” he says and opens the door for me, I run to our bedroom door and turn there when no one is close, I walk into the room and close the door behind me, I walk into our closet and grab a shirt of his and some leggings. When I come back out Derek is laying down on the bed.