loved and not loved

Loved and not loved (2)

She pretended at first, that all was well,

But having noticed all this changes, I persisted with my question. And at a point she decided to let the cat out of the box.

Like lightening I was struck by her response, in a flash I lost every color in me, I turned completely white, Losing my voice also. For some seconds both ends of the phone remained silent. I was brought back to consciousness by the faint sound of her voice.

I grew white immediately, I lost every color in me, for few seconds both ends of the phone were silent, then I was brought back to consciousness by the faint sound of her voice say ‘hello’ on the other end.

Regaining my voice I asked her again what the issue was, this time was when I comprehended what she had said to me at first, that she could no longer continue in the relationship, I tried to speak but all that came out of my mouth was it’s well and I dropped the call.

For a while what I could think was that it was a prank, I couldn’t believe what she said at first,

I wondered why it was that I had not seen that coming.

For the past six months I had been living in a dream castle. I had been fooling myself all this while and this daughter of Eva had knowingly well her intentions, while pretending had allowed me disgraced myself before the world with her fake love and suddenly out of the blue busted my bubbles.

I wondered for the moment if any of the moments we shared were ever real to her. I blamed myself for not seeing what was coming before me.

My mind was filled with a million questions, I saw what a good laugh her friends and mine would unleash behind me when they sit to discuss the event. About she dumping me.

How wicked of you ASHLEY,

Why have you betrayed my trust so completely, I tried a acting strong, keeping a straight face and going about my duties like nothing had happened. But deep down in me , everything had changed.

I felt betrayed, I saw my emotions been shattered, my love toyed with, and my heart bled. I couldn’t come up with any answer for all the questions that comes to my mind at that moment.

Honestly I had plans for us. I had paid for this comfortable accommodation for both of us to stay, I had expected her to come over after she had finished her final year exams, and probably preform her national youth service program here.

During which we could start making plans for our traditional marriage and white wedding after then.

Indeed, I had expected her to understand, but it now seems like all of a sudden I am no longer up to her standard. It was not quite two weeks I had travelled to my new base, was it possible that she had met another guy this fast? Where they seeing each other before now? All is I keep wondering.

Oh daughter of Eva, how can one trust you only to face betrayal.

I had made my intention known to her from beginning. I only concluded how wicked she was when she answered me that “ she was sorry for starting the relationship with me in the first place “ that it was not going to work.

I felt I was stroke by thunder, I began to ask, why? Why had she started the relationship in the first place knowing fully well that it was not going to work out between us, because this breakup had been without provocation.

I was really heartbroken, I pleaded with her but it fail on deaf ear, at a time I became convinced that her mind was made and there was nothing I could about it. That moment everything changed in me.

For the first few days, I tried moving around as though not had happened, I went about my duties at work trying not to think about her, but how possible was that, and finally the weight of the event of this past few days began to weigh down on me and becoming visible to others.

Femi was the first person to notice this change in my attitude and behavior, as to him I was unusually too cold.

Mama Emma, the owner of the restaurant at the car park where we usually gathered at work had called me aside and asked me what was eating me up.

She had from the first day I was introduced to her as haven been posted here from her state of origin, she had taken me in as a son.

She had asked me to take a sit at the corner and also asked one of her salesgirl to bring me a bottle of hero beer. I was surprised because hero was actually my brand of beer but considering the fact that she had never seen me drink beer before.