Makenna’s POV
I’m so excited, but also terrified. I’ve been r***d more times than I can count, but I’ve never had consensual s*x, so I have no idea what to expect. What do you even think about during s*x if you don’t have to dissociate to escape the pain? A little voice in the back of my mind tells me I can still do that; turn off my brain and let it happen to me like I did every time I was r***d. I don’t want to, though. I want to feel everything and be present in my body. I don’t want Reid to just make love to me, I want to make love to him.
Reid lays me down on the bed like he’s afraid I’m going to shatter. He lays next to me, and begins peppering my face, neck, and collarbone with soft kisses. It all feels so good and for the first time, I can feel my body starting to come to life
