36Julian Pain. Darkness. For a second, I’m back in that windowless room, with Majid’s knife slicing through my face. My stomach heaves, vomit rising in my throat. Then my mind clears, and I become cognizant of a dull ringing in my ears. That didn’t happen in Tajikistan. I didn’t feel this hot there, either. Too hot. So hot I’m burning. Fuck! A spurt of adrenaline chases away all traces of mental fog. Moving with lightning speed, I roll several times, putting out the flames eating at my vest. Nausea grips at my insides, my head throbbing with agony, but when I stop, the fire is gone. Panting furiously, I lie still and try to regain my senses. What the f**k just happened? The ringing in my head eases slightly, and I pry open my eyelids to see burning pieces of rubble all around me.

