Chapter Nine
For a brief period after Croatia, Jackie and I were completely aligned. It had had the effect of reminding me what was so special about my wife. We wanted the same things and we communicated with each other. But there was something else I was feeling too, something ineffable. A desire that wasn’t sated with titillation. I didn’t know what it was or where it would lead me, all I knew was that I wanted, needed, to explore it.
The first weekend after we came back, we had an early dinner and got dressed up. She wore the same slightly tattered black dress from that last night in Croatia, aware of the effect it had on me. We got in the car and began to drive. I wasn’t sure where I was going, I just wanted to get out of the city where everyone knew me. We forwent our usual meal in
