Rescued By Nova

Chapter 8

With Joey gone reality began to sink back in and my life began to come back into focus. One thing I know for sure is he ruined me for all other men. No other man will ever compare to what we had last night. I haven’t exactly been a w***e and just slept around but I have slept with a handful of men, and nothing even comes remotely close to Joey. I asked for magical, and he did not disappoint. Now what in hell am I supposed to do.

The one thing I know for sure is that what happened last night can’t happen again. I don’t just sleep with random men. I don’t just sleep with people I don’t know. My life is so messed up I am not even surprised that I did something so crazy.

I decided it was time to go home. I needed something to ground me. I needed to see my sisters. I needed some space from Joey to decide what I needed to do. I needed a lot of things. So, I called Macey and she said I could camp in her driveway. When I got home, she would get Mandy over and we could have a girl's night, and I fill them in on all the crazy things that have happened in my life in the last few days and get some advice. So, I loaded up Nova and hooked up the trailer and we headed out. I had to leave before I ran into Joey, if that happened, I would change my mind as soon as I looked at me. I could tell you right now if he looked at me the right way I would jump right back into bed with him. Hell, I’d probably even marry him. Wow! I’ve never been willing to get married. Okay I probably wouldn’t actually marry him. That’s just the magical s*x talking. But, I definitely need some distance.

We drove to Guntersville Lake in Alabama and stopped for the night. We hit the trails at dawn just a few hours to help with our restless energy. Then we finished the rest of the drive home. Thankfully it was late into the evening when we got in, so we just parked and stayed to ourselves for the night. Just not quite ready to face the family. I wanted to visit my mom and dad while I was home as well. It was just hard to be with all the people and their happy families sometimes when all they were going to talk about was when I was going to come home. Asking if my mid-life crisis was over yet. I groaned just thinking about it.

The next morning, Macey was in the kitchen bright and early before the kids were awake. When I walked in, she was shocked. Since the last time anyone in my family had seen my I had lost at least 60 pounds. My hair was longer. I was overall so much healthier than before. I still had a long way to go but I was well on my way in the right direction. We had plans to meet at 10 after all the kids were at school and daycare to have some girl time and tell them my story. I was honestly kind of nervous to tell them my story. I had amazing s*x with a guy I barely know. It’s not one of my proudest moments.

After the kids were all school, we all met back at Macey’s. I told them my story. All of it. They giggled. They laughed. They were in awe of Nova and super supportive of the idea of SAR training. Then the question came. So, what are you going to do about Deputy Hottie? Isn’t that the million dollar question? I have absolutely no idea. I don’t actually know him. Their advice was to get to know him. See where it goes. See if there is any potential for a serious relationship. See if we could have more than just magical s*x. My problem is if I start SAR training with him and it doesn’t work out then what are Nova and I supposed to do from there? Where would we go next? I don’t think people just jump from one SAR school to another. What if he is a terrible person? I’m so conflicted. But after all our debate their advice remained the same. Even if we didn’t solve or decide anything, we had an enjoyable time visiting. I needed that. They said I could come home anytime. They could live vicariously through me and my wild adventures. It had been too long. I said goodbye to everyone and left.

The next I stopped by to say hi to mom and dad. I spent several hours telling them about my adventures. Zero information about Joey. Stopped for dinner with Charlie and Andrea. We had a good time, nothing serious. He was loving married life. Excited and nervous about baby number two getting ready to make its arrival. I love them all but I’m anxious to get back on the road. I’m not sure where I want to go. But I know that here isn’t where I belong.

As I laid in bed that night I decided to do some more research on other facilities that did SAR dog training. I found a very reputable place in Cherry Springs, CO. It was a 12 hour drive from home and looked to be in the mountains. I decided to leave at dawn and check it out.

I tossed and turned all night. Sleep eluded me. I could not get Joey out of my mind. Every time I closed my eyes I was thinking about his hands on me, his mouth on mine, his mouth on other places, oh I had it bad.

When I left here, I wasn’t looking for a man. I don’t want another relationship. So, instead of heading back to Joey, I had chosen to run. Go the opposite direction and hope that with enough time and determination I could get him out of my head and out of my dreams.