His brother the alpha

Chapter Four: Feeling Regret

Willows POV

Lance was taking the time getting to know me and it was great, we sat outside and just chatted about everything I could feel myself getting drawn into him hanging on his every single word. Before long he began to tell me the story about how he thought he had met his mate and was in love. Arabella was her name she was a beautiful hybrid wolf who was part witch and although she was one of the most magnificent women he had ever seen she did not have the personality to match, turns out that she tricked Lance into believing she was his mate. Arabella had a very special gift which allowed her the gift of foresight abusing this power she tried to see into Lance’s future and what she saw was nothing like she had planned, for her only wish was to be his mate and to be with him forever. Lance revealed that’s she had begun a unhealthy obsession him making her jealous and finding out the truth only made things worse and this was when she decided to take matters into her own hands by fabricating a lie and bending the truth in her favour. Arabella decided that it would be a good idea to trick Lance by casting a simple enchantment she had learnt; this enchantment would trick Lance into thinking that she was his mate. However her little plan failed when she was discovered to be lying by Anton, Lance’s alpha, I couldn’t believe it at first how could someone be so unhinged it made me angry at the thought that she put her own wants and needs before his. Lance went on to explain how one night he went to look for her to confront her about what he had been told but when he reached her home she had vanished, it seemed that the embarrassment was too much for her making it wise for her to flee. Lance had tried looking for her ever since although she had attempted to deceive him he wanted to help her or at least know she was okay, I liked this side of him, despite Arabella hurting him he still wanted to do the right thing.

It was now evening, the sun had begun to set in the sky turning it a beautiful shade of pinks and purples, I headed to my room to clean up for dinner. Tonight, would be different as my father wanted to introduce Alyssa to our pack so that evening, we were joined by all my father’s pack members. My father usually kept the pack separate from our home life but tonight he wanted to make an exception in Alyssa’s honour as she would one day be their Luna. Alyssa fitted in well with our family and the pack, she brought a new sense of sunshine to our lives with her free spirit and bubbly personality I loved it. I could feel Thane, Alexander and Darius studying Lance from afar like they were formulating their own judgments about him. The three of them weren’t keen fans of Austin, they had all voiced their opinions on the subject I was intrigued to see what they thought of Lance. After dinner I retired to my room it had been a long day, I close my eyes and nodded off into a deep sleep, I begun dreaming of Lance. Replaying in my mind what happened in the garden with Austin a few days ago but instead of Austin it was Lance doing those things to me and it felt more amazing. I jolted up in bed suddenly ashamed of what I just dreamt of. Willow, your promised to another you need to stop this I thought to myself between my legs were moist from the dream and I had to admit I felt more comfortable when it was Lance doing those things to me. I bit my lip at the thought that he was only a few doors down from me probably half naked, I could still smell him, and I wanted him so much I couldn’t stop myself.

I found myself wandering to my bedroom door I could hear talking from downstairs, I crept out onto the landing and crouched down by the railings looking down at the foyer. My father’s office door was open he was talking to someone but who? It was then someone came out of his office and I shot behind the pillar I recognized the scent it was Austin. What was he doing here? I peered round the pillar and saw him shaking hands with my father then leave. It was midnight what could he possibly want at this hour?! My father then headed towards the stairs. s**t! I panicked and ran to the closest room and closed the door, my ear pressed firmly against it waiting for my father’s footsteps to pass by. When I heard him close the bedroom door, I breathed a sigh of relief it was only then I realized whose room I had ran into. Laid there in just his shorts was Lance sound asleep I couldn’t help but stare at his glorious body his muscles were well defunded and chiselled, his chest covered in a light coating of hair which travelled down to his navel. I wanted to touch him, to kiss him or even run my tongue down his snail trail. He was a work of art. Then his eyes bolted open making him jump at the sight of me just in my night dress, I put my finger up to my lips to signal him to be quiet. “What are you doing?” he whispered back at me looking dazed and confused by my sudden presence in his room, “hiding” I responded opening to door to peep outside onto the landing then shutting it again when I heard movement. I then went and sat down in the window making myself comfy I thought it would be best to wait it out abit longer until my father fell into a deep sleep. “Austin was here, just now and I saw him with my father. I have a funny feeling I will know soon enough why he was here so late” explaining to Lance what I had just witnessed out on the landing moments before. Lance climbed out of bed and came and sat next to me I looked up to be met by Lance’s burning gaze I wanted so much to lean forward and kiss him, his lips looked so soft I begin to imagine what it would be like to have them on mine. “You need to be careful,” he gently said to me and in my head I initially thought he was referring to the way I was now biting my lip and gazing at him with intent, it then dawned on me he actually was referring to Austin. I recalled the night I first met the two of them also how I felt they knew each other. “Do you know him?” I enquired digging for more information from Lance, he shook his head “Not well enough,” his response didn’t satisfy my urge to know more about the man I was in fact meant to be marrying. I found myself now watching Lance again but this time my breathing was getting more and more intense, the longer I spent with him the more I found myself pining for him, for his touch. Without warning my hands reached out to his face and he trembled under my touch and closed his eyes as if he was enjoying what I was doing, I gently stroked him and ran my fingers against his stubble and traced along his jawline. Lance’s breathing became heavy it sounded like he was panting. I rose to my feet I knew what I wanted to do, without any thought to my actions I climbed onto my lap straddling him our faces centimetres away from each other, I leant in allowing my lips to crash into his kissing him and extending my tongue into his mouth. This was what I wanted. I wanted him and no one else. Lance allowed me to kiss him and soon I could feel his hands on me touching me pulling me into him, I could feel myself getting more and more excited I wanted more, and I was ready for more. The wetness between my legs was increasing and I could now feel something hard in his shorts that was then I began to grind against him rubbing myself on his hardness, I moaned as did he, I pulled my night dress off revealing myself to him and I fell back into his mouth kissing him more and more vigorously this was it. This would be the night I lost my virginity. Lance picked me up and laid me down on his bed still kissing me I was dying inside for him falling deeper and deeper into this moment of ecstasy, I wanted him inside me so badly I could feel myself bucking underneath him wishing he would put me out of my misery. Then lance stopped he was out of breath getting off the bed he looked up at me he was torn and  confused as was I, “I can’t Willow, I’m sorry, not like this” he said, not like what? I thought to myself. I felt ridiculous that I just threw myself at him like that but I thought that was what he wanted, I thought he wanted me especially after today we had spent all day together and I could feel this magnetic energy between us. I got up off the bed and scrambled to put my nigh dress back on “This was a mistake,” I snapped, I felt so upset, I wanted him to want me and to want to be with me this way but he clearly didn’t feel the same. “Willow please,” he pleaded with me, but I didn’t want to hear anymore, and I rushed out of the room before he could continue. I suddenly felt tears come to my eyes I just wanted to be adored and loved by him, I felt a strong connection earlier and now all I could feel was rejection. Was there something wrong with me? Am I not good enough? Is this because of Austin? Austin doesn’t mean anything to me he’s just the guy I’m being forced to marry after all part of me felt like I knew that Lance was potentially my mate but something was stopping me from fully feeling it and I didn’t know what it was.

I awoke suddenly the next morning riddled with guilt and embarrassment from the night before, what was I even thinking? My heart sunk in my chest I was so confused. Austin must never know about what had happened and part of me just wanted to forget it to forget Lance. I stumbled to my feet and headed to the shower to clean off the sweat and regret. I dried my hair and my mind suddenly remembered back to seeing Austin last night, I wonder why he was here so late and what could he want at that time of night I had to find out why. I ran down the stairs and went in search of my father, he was sat at his desk in his office looking stressed “Father?” I said gently stepping into view from behind the door he looked up at me and managed to pull a smile. “Good Morning darling,” he replied I stepped forward and it was as though he knew exactly why I was here before him, “Austin came to me last night,” I listened to him with bated breath waiting for the news he was about to tell me, “It has been decided that he would like you to come join him at his families stately home, he thinks it would be best you stay there with him in preparation for becoming the Lady of the house,” he finished. My heart sunk. I needed more time I wasn’t ready to leave my family yet but nothing came as a surprise anymore as it was all too clear to me now that I didn’t have a voice if it wasn’t my father telling me what to do it would be my new husband. I looked down at my feet and sat in the chair across from my fathers’ desk, “When?” I asked he stayed silent for a moment and came and sat next to me taking hold of my hands. “I want you to know this will always be your home no matter what,” he stalled I looked up at him and pressed him again “When?” he shifted uncomfortably “Today” he answered I jumped out the chair, “Today!” I shouted back at him I couldn’t believe what I was hearing “Did you even try and reason with him or am I just some transaction or bargaining chip to you now “I snapped back at him I didn’t mean it but I was so angry. Angry that he didn’t even try and convince Austin to give me a few more days with my family at least. Tears formed in my eyes and I stormed out of his office barging past my brothers at the bottom of the stairs, I ran to my room slamming the door behind me. I didn’t want to leave; I didn’t want to be with Austin, and it was clear who it was I wanted to be with but even he didn’t want me. Frustrated I grabbed the glass of water besides my bed a threw it against the wall making it smash upon impact. My body began to shake with rage and that was when it happened my first shift, I transformed into my inner wolf letting out a growl I left from the window and out into the gardens I just wanted to run, run away from here away from the negative energy. I bounded over the fields going as fast as I could, I reached the edge of the woodland and let out an almighty howl my claws sliced into a tree trunk next to me I just felt so much rage inside.

I stayed in the forest for a good few hour trying to calm myself, my clothes all ripped from my shift luckily, I could salvage something that didn’t render me indecent. It was time to grow up Willow you have a responsibilities now I said to myself in my head, it was true, my father made a promise and although I had no choice he did it for our pack for my safety and now he was tied to it. I headed back to the house I had to accept my fate. I stumbled through the door to be greeted by a panicked mother, she threw herself at me in a loving embrace she then looked at me with tears in her eyes “Why did you just leave like that,” she said, my father then entered the room I said nothing to him I didn’t want to speak to him right now. “I’m ready to leave,” I said walking past him heading to my room to get dressed. Before I knew it, I found myself stood out the front of my family home next to a open car door that was here to take me to my new home, my family stood outside and said their goodbyes. Alyssa held me tightly I could tell she just wanted me to feel better just like my brothers did. Lance was no where to be seen. Typical! Can’t even say goodbye to me, I wasn’t going to waste my time on him anymore I was now going to be someone’s wife and a Lady he had his chance and he didn’t take it. Even if we did have anything between us it would have been forbidden. I got into the car and the driver shut the door behind me I glanced once more out at my family home my family stood in the driveway and behind them I saw the lost and broken face of Lance, maybe he did care? Should I have given him the chance to explain himself? Here I was again regretting not giving him a chance to explain but before I could change my mind and run to him the car started to drive away, oh Willow why did you have to be so stupid and jump to conclusions I thought to myself, now I didn’t just feel regret I felt guilt too tears began to fill my eyes I tried to stop them but it was no use they came flooding out like rain.