Focus
1253 Words
I need to focus!
After the art show I haven’t see Luciano for three whole days! I wonder if he’s mad at me... I’m a business owner and I have s**t to do! I don’t have time to worry about him. It would be nice to get some male attention but hey it’s me, what can I expect? I have four birthday cake orders and a book club coming in later so I need to focus! Ugh my head’s a mess, I accidentally wrote “happy birthday Luciano” on a cake! I need to go outside and take a breath. My mind is all over Luciano. I sat outside in the back ally with my head on my knees and arms crossed. I think this is the first time I’ve liked a guy In a romantic way, I mean there’s Luke but I think I liked him differently. Or maybe I was too young to know the difference between friendship like and boyfriend like. Maybe if Luke was still around we would be together and be a family, I could even have my own family. Wow to have a family. I wonder how it feels to have people support you and love you no matter what. We could even go to his parents house and have Christmas dinner oh but they would be my parents too. Maybe they’d buy me an ugly Christmas sweater and i would have to pretend like I liked it. But that could never happen. I doubt I could ever have a family. I’m not attractive and I give off sister vibes. Even the only guy who’s ever gotten anywhere near sleeping with me hasn’t even came to see me. Or call. I’m hopeless.
“Are you crying?” August pulled me from my depressing thoughts.
“Ha no?” I said Trying to play it off
“Well it defiantly looks like it”
“Well looks can be deceiving”
“Ok, but I don’t think in this case that’s true”
“No one likes it when your right” I chuckle sadly
“That’s true” he smiled and nudged me
“What’s wrong seriously?” August asked
“It’s complicated”
“It involves a guy right?”
“How did you know?”
“Well I’ve seen you take on some challenging things but I’ve never seen you date anyone, so I’m just assuming”
“Correction, I don’t date because I don’t get asked out” I laughed sadly “I’m not the date kinda girl, I’m the best friend or sister type” I looked nowhere and laughed “guys look at me then turn around an walk away fast” (Luciano sure did) I said sadly
“I don’t think that’s true” August said while grabbing my hand “I think your great, I work here because of you. Not because of the place” I scowled at him “hey I mean this place is great but your the real reason I’m here, I mean Kiki I” August stopped
“It’s ok August, I feel better now thank you for the pep talk. f that bastard” I shouted while jumping up. “Im pumped! Ready to take on some cakes” I was swinging my arms back and forth like I was ready for a fight.
“Haha your pretty cute, you know that right?”
“Ha ya in goofy kinda way, I know. but I’m your boss so anymore insults and your cleaning all the drains” I pointed at him with a wink
“Yes boss! I’ll get Right on it boss” August said impersonating a soldier.
“That’s right cadet! Get to marching” I teased
I had no more time to cry over Luke and a life I never got a chance at. Or feel sorry for myself about Luciano and him always ignoring me. Time to focus and remember that I am strong. I am good. I am enough. If Luciano thinks he can make me sad well f**k him! I’m f*****g great! And I make delicious food that I am proud of! Who needs his s**t. I can always try my hand at girls. I mean I’m already one so I think I understand them pretty well.
“Boss you have a visitor” August announced
“Who is it?”
“Some tall guy with blond hair, he said he’s here to pay for the catering job you did”
“Oh ya! Ya! That’s Jaxs send him back please” I asked nicely
“Right on it boss” August winked.
Taking my apron off I walked to my office. Brushing flour off me as I walked. *cough* *cough* I turned around quickly to find Jaxs walking through my cloud of flour I was dusting off.
“Oh s**t! I’m sorry!” I apologized
“It’s fine” he smiled “I take it, it’s part of the job”
“Ya pretty much. I spend most of my life with a layer of flour on me and random stuff in my hair” I laughed while dusting some crumbs out of my hair. “Come to my office and I’ll give you, your total”
“Can’t wait, my boss is paying anyways” he chuckled “oh ya did you get a chance to met my boss? He was really happy with the work you did” ya I bet he was
“Yes I did. He’s actually a regular here”
“So this is his favorite coffee place! I though he was joking and he really meant Starbucks”
“He didn’t tell you the name?”
“No he kept it secret saying something like ‘If I tell you then my treat might be taken away’ kinda thing. Which makes no sense because I don’t even like the same stuff he likes! I prefer croissants and he likes muffins”
“Well maybe he’s worried that you’ll try my delicious muffins and you’ll be converted to a muffin lover” I said with a sly smile.
“Ya maybe or maybe he’s crushing on someone here and doesn’t want me to steal them away”
“I doubt that but then again August is pretty good looking” I teased Jaxs
“I knew it! He’s always giving me the eye if you know what I mean” giving a fake shiver.
“Your too much!”
“Well he did say I could spend whatever i want for the show, maybe he was bribing me for my body” Jaxs covered his body like he was naked. I bursted out laughing. I laughed so hard I almost peed. Well maybe a little.
“So how much do I owe you?
“With everything it comes out to twenty five hundred.”
“That’s to cheep! I have a check for five”
“No way can I accept that! That’s too much”
“Think of the rest as a tip” he slid me the check “I am aloud to tip right?”
“Ya but not like that, that’s to much” I sighed “well I do owe you all dinner for helping me and Emily out, maybe we should spend some of this on a group dinner?”
“Hey is your money now” Jaxs raised his hands in the air away from the check
“Ok fine” I laughed
“My brothers can’t come but Angie is free”
“Where did they go?”
“They had to go to Italy to pick up a piece of art with Luciano, it was last minute so they went with him”
“Mr.Vera went with them?” I said raising an eyebrow
“Well ya they find potential pieces and Luciano goes with to make sure everything is ok. They’ll be back today though”
“Sounds fun” I fake smiled. So he’s ignoring me? Or maybe not? . “So dinner tonight? You, Angie, Emily and me?”
“Sounds like a plan” Jaxs nods with a smile. He’s probably thinking of Emily. Cute.
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