Special Thing Called LOVE

hatred

I always greeted her whenever i came home and say goodbye when i leave.

See what I've got to you baby. She excitingly said.

I smiled at her. She looks so happy. This maybe the costume that i told her to buy me.

Let me see then.

She drag me at her room. You will like it it was amazing beautiful.

If not i will not wear it. I joke.

She hit me but its not strong. You little brath you know my taste when it comes to dresses.

Tadan..... she drawn the traditional colour blue costume. Our motifs was traditional costume of different country's and looking at this costume this was a traditional costume of man in china.

Isn't it beautiful baby?.

So much but isn't this pricey? I hate fancy thing I'm ok with those cheap prizes shirt but durable.

A 'lil but but its ok this is your first time going in a party. So you need to be pretty handsome. You're a man now though you look good in ragged style but then try this styles sometimes. I want to buy some suit on you but where would you wear it?. Mom knows me well. I'm a mom's boy.

You never go to a party. You keep on staying at our house reading those books given by your uncle. If not here you will go to the public library to read some comics books." She was rolling her eyes while saying it.

Uncle will hear you mom lower down your voice. "I reprimand her, she's being talkative". She cover her mouth while giggling.

I really hate your uncle if not he was being left alone here we will leave this house.

I laugh, let him hear it.

And when he does he will nag on us. No thank you. Wear this if its good or not but I think this was your size.

I just take off all of my clothes in front of her but when i take off my pants she struck me with the box where this gown placed.

You little boy, you are my baby boy even if you were get old but please have some decency. Don't rip your clothes in front of me.

What's wrong with it mom. I'm your baby right?. It's ok if i will get naked in front of you you saw all of this when i were young.

Are you not ashamed of it?.

Why?, ashamed im proud of it. See my muscle see my abs.

She wipe her virtual tears. You really grown so fast and i hate it. You were not my little baby boy who will cry if i don't change your diaper.

You will cry now but you don't want me to take off my shirt in front of you. Your impossible mom.

Because i don't want to see those evidence that you were not a baby anymore.

Stop it i am your baby as long as you want and if my hair turns gray.

So sweet my lil boy, try it now let me see ok.

We talk random topics when dad entered the room talking to his phone. When he saw me he turn off the call and smile at me.

How are you son?, its been a long time I never see you. Do i need be jealous or sulk because i feel you were hiding on me.

I was being busy to school. And you came home late that's why we cannot see each other. I'm not hiding is that you. You have no time to us. I coldly say.

JingYi, take it off now and i will washed that. Go now to the dinning and lets eat dinner together, "she pointed at dad". I think uncle is here too. That's my mom good at turning the conversation specially if the air between me and my dad was not good.

I can do it by myself mom don't bothered yourself. You go now in the dinning i will clean and put this in the washing then i will follow.

Ok, make it fast ok?. Change now and follow me in the dinning. "She told at dad.

When she left i hurriedly left too but it was too late because dad hold my arm.

Why too over confident with yourself young man?. Until now you never forgive me, until now you still hate me that much?. "He's pissed".

Ask yourself, you had the answer in your own questioned. I treated him coldly every time we were together or talk like this.

I maybe bad at your eyes but you can't blame me why i was treated him like this. He deserve this cold treatment to me. Mom was that too kind and generous that's why she can still talk nicely to the man who cheated on her not once not twice but thrice.

Despite of what he have done mom accept it wholeheartedly and forgive him for the sake of their marriage and for my own sake. And i know mom love him that much.

I'm not my mom i can't tolerate such wrong doings. I really hate and curse people like him.

I turn my back to him and go to the washing area. I put the clothes on the machine. After i go to my room and clean myself. If you ask if i feel bother the way i act in front of him the aswer is no. A big NO,. Since i new his bad business i treated him like this coldly and emotionless. I hated him much more when i learned the truth that he wanted to get rid of me when i was still at the tummy of my real mom.

He dare not speak any bad words to me except to the words that he put some meaning on it. He knows me well. I will throw it back to him if he does it.

He can't complain, this was the payments for his flirtation and cheating.

I go in the dinning when i finish everything. They were started eating. I pull the chair beside mom and she put some food on my plate.

You spoil your son to much carla. He's big now let him act at his age. Don't babysit him. It was uncle so strict but he's like my dad womanizer.

Dad, let me please i was happy to babysit him besides he loves it too right baby?. Mom ask me while smiling.

Who wouldn't mom. "I smiled back".

Maybe uncle was so strict but he was soft to my mom. Mom dad died when she was born and uncle stand as a dad to mom. Uncle had three wives. He had lots of children but no one step in at this house where the legal wife of him live and died.

His wife died because of depression. When she discovered that uncle cheated on her and worst he got child on that other woman while her she cannot bear a child. She cannot give uncle wish to had a child.

Those depression told her to kill herself coz she can't take it anymore. She can't take the pain. So she kill herself to escape from pain and hurt.

I had no idea if he was affected at the death of his legal wife coz according to mom. He doesn't cry or something but i think he is. There is one room in this house which is prohibited to open except him and one time i saw him entered in the room without closing the door. I saw a picture of a woman in the frame hanging in the wall. I think that room was thing that his late wife or mini museum for his late wife it was a quite big room.

He was affected but he didn't let anyone saw it. He keep it to himself and act tough but deep inside he was mourning.

We eat our dinner silently sometimes mom would broke that silence but most of the time no one talk. Its kind of awkward. Yes it is, i saw my dad glancing in me from time to time. I know he would throw a question on me but he was hesitating. He knows i will mocked at him if he would ask nonsense and repeated questions.

After eating i volunteered myself to wash the dishes. I let mom go to her room and rest she had work tomorrow. I didn't expect that dad remain in the dinning. After i finished i saw him.

Need something?. I know he wanted to talk to me that's why he stay.

Your mom wants to meet you. He directly say with hope on his voice. Could you gratify her wish?.

Nope. Tell that to her. "I hate giving hope to someone i was mad off so its better to hurt her than give hope that i could never do.

Why?, she regret what she did.

She regret yes but it doesn't change the fact that she want to get rid of me. And why you keep on seeing her?. I become curious.

She meet me to tell this to you. She wants to talk to you and say sorry in person.

Still no. I couldn't give what she wants. I don't want to be rude in front of him and i can't assured myself that I can't hurt her with my words so better not to see and talk her. I would just hurt her feelings and she was more devastated to it.

I excuse myself now. One more thing please if you want to cheat again to mom please fill a divorce on her before doing it. He got lots of pain already don't add more. You might kill her if you do it again.

I left him. I got hurt too but its better that way. Hurt because i can't ask her why and also i want to reprove her but it will hurt mom. Mom was to kind to tell me not to resent my real mom but i can't do that.

When the topic was about her i kept my silence and never ask single questioned to it. Should i say i avoid it in purpose.