Tragically Fated

Chapter 11

It's an early dismissal for this day. We, Lily, decided to get out earlier as well to the cafeteria. Liam wasn't able to attend because he has something to attend to. I didn't mind to ask him but he just texted me a while ago that he cannot be able to accompany me to go home. Too bad.

The Dean had informed us about the Gifted Program that there no updates so far but as soon as possible, they will approach us via e-mail or personal meetings.

Lily took my order and began to stand up. Since, my phone has run out of battery, nothing to do but to observe the surroundings, I scanned the whole area. The cafeteria was a bit empty and only a few of us left in the school.

I saw familiar faces outside the canteen. His broad shoulder, wearing a sleeveless jersey, flexing his biceps that worked so hard for, made me recognize who is he. It was a natural to feel the foreign feeling inside my chest not until when a petite, sexy girl approaches him and gave him a torrid kiss. It's like they are thirsty for each other that the only thing that could cure that desperate thirst is the lips of each other.

I should be the one feeling him that. I should be the one kissing him, savoring his warm lips against mine. That should be me.

Here I am again, a foreign feeling of pang of pain in my heart. I was rooted from my sit. About a minute when I have recovered to my frozen disposition. Slowly, tears began to flow on my cheeks. It's like they are used to stream down my face. They are used to sweep every time I felt pain. I am used to pain. I just go with the flow of pain. That's it. That's how I live.

My heart pounded like I ran a million miles away when I noticed them going towards our direction. Seeing them through the transparent sapphire glass, they are coming through the cafeteria. Not just the two of them but the whole teammates causing to create a combination of loud, confused inharmonious sound. 

Where the heck is Lily? Did she buy the whole stock in the canteen that she cannot return back here? I did just order a bottled water.

They seated in the designated sits maintaining their loud commotion. I felt someone's presence behind my back and I checked who that is, it's a sudden slow motion. We intently stared at each other. Right after our eyes fixated on each other, it tells a lot of stories using non-verbal expressions and vehement emotions.

"Gab, what you see earlier--"

"Mark," 

And he diverted his attention to the girly voice who called his name, like how he diverted easily to someone, making me in broken pieces.

She tiptoed Mark's hair due to his tallness causing to shower beads of sweat from his hair but in spite of that, the manly scent soothing in my nose. Mark shifted his gazed at me, he clenched his jaw like he doesn't want me seeing him to be touched by another girl. His brooded, deep eyes deriving my soul full of authority and nobility. His clenched fist making his vein stream up to his elbow didn't pass to my sight.

She held his wrist and pull against my area. "Let's go,"

She let him pull her and had their own business. I heard her whisper something that totally shaken my senses. "Do you know that girl?" Not because she whispers that way but because of what Mark's response.

"Nope, just a someone I didn't know," he chuckled. "Why? Are you jealous?"

That's it. I was in burst. I was in the catharsis of my emotion. I heard someone broken like a fragile glass scattered on the floor.

I was mistaken. That must be my heart. Dumped and torn into thousand pieces.

I heard Lily in front. "Gab, I'm sorry for I took a bit--"

I didn't let her finish her statement as I rushed into the threshold of the cafeteria but before I could success to get out of this hell, I bumped into someone causing a large commotion. His hard chest hit against my face. If I will be judging, he is a professor and a fresh graduate from college that I could see his young, juvenile face despite of being a professor in this school. 

Everybody was darting their attention from the both of us. I heard a faint whisper around them. But that doesn't matter to me, what caught my attention is his dark chocolate face piercing against me like I made an embarrassing moment in front of him.

I bowed my head as I compose my apology. "I-I'm sorry sir. I'm sorry."

I didn't manage to look at him again and began to run in that place. All I want right now is to breathe out that suffocating area killing me softly. Like I ran in an unstoppable manner is how my tears began to escape my eyes incessantly. 

Right now at this moment, I don't need a heart ache. I don't need a pain. I need her. I need grandma to help me. She is the only way the I could feel at ease. In a short moment that we have encountered, I already felt home from her. I don't know, maybe only her could understand my situation. Yet when I needed her the most is the moment of her long time disappearance.

I ran where I wasn't able to recognize the place I've come. I just knew that there were benches in front of me so I decided to rest for a while. I decided to rest for the aches. For the pain.. for the agony... for the sufferings...

Jee, you cannot surrender from this battle. You are just starting, Jee. Remember the loved ones you have left outside this world. Remember Prince that was rooting for you to accomplish this mission. 

I rested calmly and let my tears flow down, letting my vision started to blur. 

Then I felt someone patted my back as if all the burdens I have suddenly vanished away. "Didn't I told you that you could find me everywhere?"

And there she is, for a very long time I met her. It felt surreal now that I hugged her tight and surrender all the weight to her. 

"Where have you been, lola? I was looking all over the places that I might possibly find you. I looked for the police station and yet I was just judged by a crazy woman lost in places. Lola, I need you. I really need you and you are the only one I can count on to in this world." I mumbled in the midst of sob.

She let me hug her tights. She let me waive all the rants. She let me free out my emotion. She just listens to me like finally in the second time of my life, I felt that I have a family who has been comforting me. After all, family is the only one you could run for in every problems you are taking.

Everyone needs a house to live in but a supportive family is what builds a home.

In this world full of temptations, I cannot entrust my heart's instincts. No matter how hard I try to be righteous, I still end up following my heart. And knowing hearts, they lack wisdom.

"Lola, I cannot take this anymore. How long will I live with suffer? How long will I survive? How long could I take?"

How long could I hide my feelings to someone that I couldn't reveal my heart's whine?

Because no matter how I restrain my heart, it only wavers. No matter how I try to divert, the more it intensifies. It's so unfair that no matter how he hurt me. No matter how broken pieces it would be scattered, my heart still able to forgive him because from the very start, I have fallen really hard and the only thing that could cure that feeling is to spoil this feelings or deal with it until eternity..