I'm not happy. Well... I'm not fully happy, but I'm still happy—just a little, though. I thought that being with Ethan would, somehow, make me happy and that it was the right choice to make. I'm not entirely sure, anymore. Sure, he treats me well and does his best to make sure I'm happy... but there's still that part of me that's just yearning for Ian. I just ‐ I just... Maybe I need a little more time, you know—a little more time to get over him. Ethan knows it; he knows I still feel something for Ian, but I think he chooses to ignore it in hopes that whatever I still feel for Ian will fade away with time. I don't want to disappoint him; I don't want to break his heart after all we've been through. I don't. But some things are unavoidable. Some things we have no control over. My heart, ev
