I opened my eyes and saw the ceiling and heard quiet whispers. I looked sideways and I saw ivy, mom and a whole lot of people in the room.
Ahh I said as I tried to stand up but the headache I felt was sharp, where am I? I asked.
in a hospital mom responded, why ? I asked. And mom looked at me with a sad smile, ivy, I said as I looked at ivy, where's zain ? I asked, Ivy didn’t say a word,
She just sat beside me, sobbing quietly. She hugged me and said it's going to be alright. What happened? I asked as I screamed, and a sharp pain hit my head again and it replayed.
Like a sharp thorn on my head, I opened my eyes and looked towards dad who stood by the hospital bed looking at me, I remember standing in the church,
I looked at the environment and it was filled with a lot of stares , whispers and pitiful looks. My eyes became red. I want to be left alone. I said,
no princess, I couldn't contain the emotions I felt all in that minute, I want to be left alone.
I screamed , out of all of you, I said as I sobbed quietly, Ivy escorted everyone out and stayed back after many attempts to push her out, Ivy walked towards me and hugged me tightly and laid on the bed with me.
I hugged Ivy as I sobbed, who was it? I asked, Ivy , not now, she said as she pulled in to hug me tighter, I'd find out anyway I whispered.
Fine it was, her, her who? I asked. Irene. As her response left her mouth I felt a sharp pain on my chest,
deep down I suspected her, but I felt like our bond was stronger and believed she'd never betray me, hmm I said, it should have been anyone in this world I wouldn’t care but not my own best friend,
I said, as the tears kept flowing, I felt invisible, and at this moment, I felt empty like my world had been crushed. I felt abandoned by my own best friend and lover.
Ivy hugged me with her hands trembling as she sobbed it's going to be okay, she said. But it wasn’t, it wasn’t okay, nothing about my best day, turning to my worst day was okay.
My tears spilled down my cheeks constantly, I felt heavy, I felt empty, I felt sick, I screamed and screamed and screamed.
I weeped again, I felt the pain, the disgrace , the betrayal, the scar that had been dropped on me, I cleaned my tears again and again and again, but it didn’t seem to stop.
Hours later, I found myself alone sitting in a green cushion in my apartment, the apartment I shared most of my life with zain,
our little quiet dream life, I looked around and sat on the floor in my wedding dress which was already so crumbled and soaked in my tears, my makeup and hair as scattered as ever.
the room smelled like his collagen and flowers, collagen I thought and then I remembered her smelling the same,
no way it could have been a coincidence I said, my eyes becoming teary again,
I muttered energy and stood up from the chair in the parlor where every breath of his scent reminded me of him. I walked upstairs to the room.
I sank on the bed and sank my face in the pillows, ahhhhh, I screamed I felt like disappearing entirely, the pain, betrayal,
how much I begged him not to leave me , the thought kept coming in glimpses like a wave in my mind,
I picked up my phone and dialed his number of course I needed and deserved closure, I deserve a reason why at least,
but every single dial went unanswered, he sent me straight to voicemail, after five unanswered trials, I took a deep breath and sent a voice note, why, I said and ended it as much as I hated zain, I still loved him,
I waited for hours for a response but I got none, I sat there for hours and hours and hours, scrolling through my gallery through our millions of photos together.
I scrolled through the photos and one picture caught my attention, the day he proposed, on a day, I least expected, to me it felt like a dream
we had gone for out monthly date which was our monthly ritual to always do something new monthly,
we went skydiving for the first time, I was so scared, I screamed so much and there he was right behind me,
so calm and comforting, holding me tight with his blue ever comforting eyes, he held me tight and I felt like the world had gone quiet with just me and the love of my life left in it,
immediately, we landed on ground, I kept screaming of how nice it was and he didn’t respond, I couldn’t see him and I turned right behind me and there he was on one knee,
smiling, with a promise of forever right before he popped the question, I smiled over the photo, as I closed my eyes smiling,
I took a deep breath in and out and reality sank in, my smiles faded, once more.
As much as I knew, I still loved him, he pierced me, he betrayed me, the both did,
The disgrace, the betrayal ahh I said, as I recalled the scenes from that day his words to me on the altar, she's pregnant, and Irene had his scent on her right before the wedding ,
How long has this been going on for ? I questioned my thought, I can't let go so easily,
ahhhh I screamed, the pain and again looked over my phone and still no response, before today he had never ignored me for more than a minute,
my reality, I thought as I stood up, cleaned my tears and walked towards the mirror, I looked at myself in the mirror, a th
ought sank in, as I smiled sheepishly and said it's time for payback .