I was at work thinking about certain scenarios in my head, outcomes that could lead to different problems. All these types of weird thoughts that were not letting me sleep at night. I hated myself for being like this. I was never like this. I always had a normal life besides the whole being a wolf. That is the only thing that made me different. I had a mom and dad, I was the only child. They worked a lot and I knew that I could never be like them. I have gone through too much, seen things that I hope Thalia would never have to.
My little girl. My person.
I had never felt love like that before. It was amazing and she was one of the reasons for my being here. I remember those nights that I wanted to take my life. I wanted to just end all the pain that I had to go through. The tears that never stopped because I was beaten by a man whom no one would ever love again. A monster.
"Hey Bella, you doing okay there sweetie?" I turn my head towards Conrad his eyes have a look of worry on them as he sets aside some papers he has in his hands.
"Im good, yeah Im fine Im so sorry." I turn my back towards him and inhale a deep breath. When I exhale I look up and find myself staring at the cars on the road passing by.
"Isabella, you can head home for the day. I promise I got it from here. Go stay at home with Thalia." I didn't know what to say to him. He was a kind man and although him and Laura never had kids of their own they treated me as if I was one of theres.
After Conrad let me go home early Laura insisted that I take a nap and I was completely okay with that in fact I was so grateful that I told Laura I would make her and Conrad dinner. Laura still insisted that she help with that too which was completely up to her. When I had woke up two hours later Thalia was laying on the ground with little toys above her head as Laura was in the kitchen washing her bottles.
"Hi baby girl!" My hands reach for her little feet and I play with her tiny toes as she giggles and looks at me. Her eyes were astonishing. They were brown but brown to me was always beautiful. It was subtle but they always captured your eyes when you got close enough.
"I guess I'll head to the grocery store real quick with the baby so I can get a couple more stuff for tonight." Laura peeks her head at me and she nods as she drys the bottles.
"Oooh I'll get the pots from home and bring them back here then." she says excitingly because Conrad just bought her a whole new set from some magazine that she couldn't stop talking about for weeks. "You know what Bella, are sure you don't want to make dinner at my house? That way you don't have to clean after." she says sheepishly. I laugh at her knowing she just really enjoys cooking in the comfort of her own home.
"Okay fine as long as you help me perfect the banana nut bread." I say smiling down at Thalia.
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Thalia was sound asleep on the cart in her carseat while I pushed her gently through the aisles of the market.
I looked for some eggs and was about to grab a carton when a little hand came up and we both grabbed it at the same time. I looked down and saw a little girl of about four years old.
"Sawy mawmma say I can gwab da eggs today becawuse I was good in scwool." she says biting her nail
"Oh that's fine sweetie I can just grab another one." I say kneeling down to her tiny size and smiling while reaching for eggs.
I put the carton in the cart and hear Thalia gurgling in her seat. I turn to her baby bag and get her baby bottle and feed her.
"Is that yowr baby?" The little girl says trying to get a good look at Thalia
"Yea she's my baby, her name is Thalia." I say smiling at the little girl trying to steal a glance at Thalia and noticing the little girls mom isn't around.
"I'm Adewine(Adeline) but mwy uncwle and gwandma and my daddy call me Addy, Mowmmy has a baby too buwt he growing inside hewr tummy." the little girl says with an excited squeal
I look at her jumping up and down with a big smile on her face. Her black long braid bouncing around with her, when a small young woman with beautiful black hair and a pregnant belly appears with similar green eyes. Her smell is similar and she's glowing like as if she knows no one can touch her immediately, I know she's a wolf.
"Adeline! I told you to stay close to me!" The scared short beautiful woman said
"You said I cwould get the eggs Mommy." she said whimpering a little
"When I was done getting the bread sweetie, don't go running off like that again okay." her mom says while wrapping her around in a little embrace that's when the lady notices me with Thalia.
Her eyes look towards the carseat where I pull Thalia out to burp her.
"I'm sorry I hope Adeline didn't cause you any trouble." she says looking at Addy
"Oh no it's fine, she's a sweetheart." I say looking at Addy with a huge smile
"I'm Violet, I haven't seen you around." she says extending her hand out for me to shake
I let my hand leave Thalia's back for a second and took her hand to formally introduce myself.
"Isabella, Bella for short and I moved here a few months back."I say smiling at her
She looks towards Thalia and softens at Thalia's small figure held in my hands.
"How much months is she?" Violet ask while Addy looks up at Thalia
"She's about five and a half months" I say putting Thalia back in her seat while she's sound asleep.
"She's still so small." she says silently
"Yea she is, she's small but she can sleep like a bear." I say looking at Thalia with a pacifier in-between her little lips.
Violet lets out a little laugh, "Well I'm sure this little one won't be he's always kicking he's seven months along but it feels like he's trying to kick his way straight out of my belly." she says rubbing her swollen stomach.
"Thalia hardly ever kicked but maybe it's different with a boy." I say remembering my pregnancy that I dreadfully went through. I'll always remember the little things about nurturing a baby for nine months but it was hard to save those memories when what came with it was something entirely different for me.
"Maybe it's because Adeline never kicked so much." she said looking down at Addy who was smiling up at her momma's tummy.
"It was Nice meeting you Isabella, but my fiancé is expecting me home and I told him I wouldn't take that long..he's a little..overprotective." she says with a wink
"Oh..okay that's fine it was nice meeting you too Violet" I say giving her a little handshake
Theirs a tug at the end of my blouse and I look down and notice Addy's braid.
"Will ywou cwome bwack isabwella?" I hear Addy with her bottom lip jutting out as if she was begging for me to stay
"Maybe pretty girl, I'll see you around okay." I say while running my hand over her baby hairs that are coming out of her braid
"Okway den see you Lwater Thalia!" she said while standing on her tippy toes and barley touching Thalia's covered feet who were hanging at the end of her little carseat.