The cracks will show

Chapter 6 Where I am now

I'm still happily married to my Jamaican king. doing all I can to be the perfect wife, I remain strong fighting for my health to get better. My house is lovely, cosy, and safe. I'm giving up smoking and looking forward to a healthy me.

When it comes to my children, my 2 sons who were forced into adoption are said to be doing well. I've received a letter from the adopted parents along with photos that I will cherish for a lifetime. I hope in the future they will look for me and find me. I will never ever give up on them ever.

I've made many achievements and done so many things in the hope of getting my youngest back. He is currently placed with his father's mother under an sgo order. I see him 6 times a year, which is better than nothing, to be honest.

My other 3 children I have daily contact via phone, message, and social media as well as well as first contact. They have all grown up beautifully with my oldest daughter being 18 with her own child, my handsome grandson. Who's already one year old, I remain confident that my children will always remember I love and cherish them dearly.

And that I will continue to fight till my dying day. It seems I have a long way to go with a lot of fights left in me. I will never give up ever.

I will support those in my situation and support those who need it the most. I'm not the only mother who's lost a child, and I won't be the last. We all have voices, and it's about time someone hears us.

The damage may be done, but my evidence is proof waiting to be seen and acted upon. I'm living proof that strength is within the beholder and that giving up really is not an option for me.

my children are:

Paris 18- 19 on 28th December

crystal 17- 18 on 23rd December

angelica 12-13 on 11th August

Jayden 5-6 on 9th December

Rio 4- 5 on 1st October

Frankie 3-4 on 6th October

I'm not just a 36 mother with 6 children. I'm a grandmother to 1 boy levi 💙

life works in wicked or wonderful ways my children are and will always be the best part of me. As I get older and wiser, they grow to. I just hope they never go through what I did.

I will always go against the local authority until the day they face the consequences of their own greed and actions. The courts I hope get looked into and at, and judges get more of an understanding when it comes to the impact they cause by siding with the very local authorities that ruin lives and family's.

Their lack of understanding will be their biggest downfall and regret. The cracks will continue to show no matter how much they hide the truth and silence the innocent. They, like all of us, are not untouchable.