ANATHEMA OF AMNESIA

DAYS IN SILENCE

He was thirteen when he entered in arbasta Full of rage and anger.i still remember the shine of his eyes they wanted revenge for taking his freedom.it was a cold day of January it was snowfaling outside.four staffs was holding him two from left and two from right.he was trying his best so he could escape but he didn't knew that escaping from arbasta is impossible for anyone. Arbasta is one the best mental super speciality hospital in the world. it's surrounded from high peeks and mountain and woods.eveyone who come here have a special kind of disorder.when they come they always try to escape but after sometime they realise that it's not a prison it's the best perfect home for them.but goerge was too young to understand all this he just wanted to escape and go to his parents but he didn't they know they are the one who decided to leave him here.A week passed he didn't spoken a single word to anyone.He think that he is in a prison and being punished.He is so stupid and emotional kind of kid but what I can say he is just thirteen the smallest and youngest member of arbasta.I tried to talk to him mang couples of times because I am the one who have tk take care of him as I'm his incharge but it's not working he just don't answer any of my question .Another week passed and he still didn't talked to anyone not even with me but now atleast we have a kind of connection.We see each other six times a day because I have to give him medicine on time.Now he started to being comfortable with me .He gives me a smile everytime but this smile contains alot of pain.I wanted to ask him the reason but as he don't reply I didn't forced him to tell me.But it's dangerous for his Mental health I had to do something.So I planned to talk to him at night in alone.At midnight I went to him, he was sleeping or maybe fooling me.I whispered in his ear “wake up let's go for a walk” he stood up immediately and start walking towards the garden like he already knew what I want or maybe he also wanted to go out for some fresh air.So I followed him.He stoped at the walk path in the garden and waited for me,I thought that's the right moment to start a conversation.

"Why you are depresive and serious"I asked to him.But he didn't said anything at all.i had made a decision that at this moment I will make him talk to me.

"Missing your family and friends?" He nodded slightly

Finally he gave a reaction I said to myself in my mind but I really wanted to talk more than that so I decided to ask some more questions.

"Why don't you speak to someone?try to make some friends"I said

"I don't wanna talk to anyone about anything and I don't wanna make friends or love anyone anymore cause the more you love the more it hurts."he finally said!

I was really shocked by his answer I mean how a boy or thirteen can say something like that but I understood what he is trying to say. I mean he just lost his family and friends in last week.so it's normal to think like that.

"I can understand how it's feel and I truly respect your feelings"I said to give him some sympathy.

"You can't no one can understand how it feels." He said in a harsh voice and turned to go to his room.

"STOP" i said and grabbed his hand and dragged him close to myself.It was the first time in last two weeks I realised how skinny he is , his slim fingers got hidden in mine I can feel the warmth of his hand.i pulled him more close towards me and sat down on my knees so I could mantain a proper hight and distance. now we are so close to each other so I can feel his breath on my face.I was planning to teach him a lesson but suddenly he looked at me with his shiny eyes full of tears.He made a perfect eye contact so I did the same we looked in each other's eyes for almost 10 minutes without saying a single word I was able to see the pain and loneliness in his eyes but I said nothing. Immediately he moved his hands around my body and hugged me as hard as he can and started crying I didn't knew what to do so I hugged him back and held him for more than 15 minutes he was crying too much.I wanted to move him away and ask him what's going on but somehow I wasn't able to that.This boy have something special. Holding him was giving me a special kind of feeling and the way he looked at me and holding me is very different and strange. It's almost 2am and we're out in garden I looked at sky, stars were shining and a it was full moon looking like a beautiful night from a fairy tale but snowfall started and my body started trembling so I decided to take him in.

"It's alright let's come in and we will talk there." I said but I realised he was fallen asleep so I took him to his bed and layed him down on his bed and sat next to him watching his red skinny face. I don't know why but I felt something special for the boy which I never felt for anyone else. In my whole carrier I never got attached to any patient in this 29 years but with this boy today I got bonded with my whole heart.Its almost 3:19am but I'm still sitting next to him...

In the morning when I woke up he wasn't on his bed besides it his bed and even my own clothes were red because of blood.