Derek hated every aftermath of his s*x performances.
The guilt. The self-loathe and brewing hate towards Franc who didn’t see anything as a big deal. The shame came a lot more these days, ever since his crush on Reggie took root. His mother had been a s*x worker and was liberal with him on most things she shouldn’t but that did nothing to alleviate the constant claw of shame on his guts. Now as he lay with his back to Franc who was dressing hurriedly, having another appointment tonight – perhaps another s*x performance, he let his mind wander back to the peculiar events of his childhood. His mother had worked telesales, a single mom and when he’d first discovered her secret job as a s*x worker also, he was finding hard to accept his sexuality and choices. She’d tried to keep it a secret f
