Damsel Not

CHAPTER 4

Katie was sprawled on her reading couch that Sunday afternoon as she thought of the time in her life she thought she had it all, a loving boyfriend and an amazing family. She had so much love then and so much passion towards her family she failed to see just how much of a burden they saw her to be. But her family breaking her heart wasn't as painful as having her boyfriend break her spirit.

Kevin was a horrible man disguised as a good soul. Katie had fallen in love with him and was ready to forsake her family and her dreams just to be Kevin’s woman. All the times he told her how much she wasn't doing enough she learned how to be better. She once tried to dress appealing for him and when he got home he hardly noticed. So she took her willfulness and asked him why he wasn't taken by her state if undress and he said, 'He didn't respect women who wear revealing clothes.' Since then, Katie tried her best to cover her body, stopped wearing heels, stopped making her hair outstanding and resorted to being a plain woman. Her carves hidden and her locked hair was cut and fixated on doing long thick braids instead.

Kevin appreciated her then, and said she was now wife material, one that he was no longer afraid to show to his family, but even so, he never showed her to his family. He hid her from his family and every time she tried to bring up the topic, he'd tell her he wasn't financially ready enough. Meanwhile, Kevin chipped every aspect of her away, slowly by slowly. Rendering her a shell of the woman she was.

She lost her confidence, her self-esteem, her dreams, she lost herself. Until one day she went out with Rachael, her long-time childhood friend. That night, despite her outrage towards her later, she got totally wasted and ended up in bed with one of Rachael's friends. To date, she cannot forget the s*x they had.

She hardly remembers his name, but remembers how his tongue played with her c**t, how his lips sucked on her as he f****d her with his finger. She remembers having her first orgasm and how he had to calm her down before she understood that what her body had done was totally normal. He had gone down on her two more times to prove to her that it was her body responding to pleasure.

Her n*****s were so erect they pained, she had never seen them like that, Mr. Victor f****d her from behind that night and she blasted head fast into a new world with a new side of pleasure, one she had never known existed. At first she thought it was unorthodox, but her lover’s reassuring words, caresses, and sweet kisses reassured her that all this and so much more she had missed.

Her lover had f****d her vigorously on her hands and knees while he lightly spanked her butt. She was mortified but also aroused. He had even tried to insert a finger into her ass and she almost sky rocketed off the bed before she was pulled back and f****d to an orgasm.

She woke up the next morning panicking. She had cheated on her boyfriend. She was so angry at Rachael for letting it happen but was also secretly happy it did. So she went home and kept quiet about her encounter but started to ask Kevin if they could explore s*x in more unorthodox ways rather than the missionary and plain s*x they usually had. Kevin had looked at her and asked what she had in mind.

"We could start with oral sex." She said shyly.

"The Bible forbids a man to look at a woman’s s*x. You can do it to me though, doesn't forbid that, in fact it's not written anywhere. But for a woman, it's considered unclean." He said. "And where did you learn that anyway?" He asked.

'Oh, I read a book. Had all this things in it, and sparked my interest."

"God doesn't like his children reading such books; I don't want to find you reading such books anymore. Go to Father Mathew tomorrow and confess, and throw away that silly book."

Katie tried after that night, do many times, to entice Kevin to pleasure her more, to rub her c**t with his fingers but all her pleasures were branded a devils work and she needed to relax and lay still and let her man find his pleasure. s*x was never pleasurable to her for all the pain she felt, but after her drunken night she understood why their s*x was not pleasurable. She could no longer feel his touch, Mr. Victor pounding in her brought about more pain than pleasure. However, when she tried to explain her predicament to Kevin, he brushed her off and said pain during s*x was normal if the man’s Mr. Victor was huge and a woman’s opening narrow, she just had to get used to it. But right now, staring out the window, she laughed at herself.

One year later, after so many unfulfilled nights, Katie stopped replying Kevin's messages, after all, he only called when he wanted to release his semen inside her and was broke to find another woman. At twenty-one, she had lost direction except in one particular area, s*x. Now she knew what she wanted and how she wanted it. But first things first, building herself.

Katie took a year to realize herself again and to once again set a clear path for her future. This she realized could be done through reading. And so she started reading. She read self-help books, romance and fiction novels, all the must read before you die books, and towards the end of that year, she knew what her life would be. She had intently corrupted her so pure mind with what the world truly had to offer and now wanted to go out there and live a more fulfilling life.

She enrolled to college for her degree, and worked so hard on her side hustles. One day she secured an internship in a big company that employed her with a hefty salary three months later, and all her plans suddenly came alive. Katie bought several pieces of land across the country and finally opened her dream chain of grocery shops, Empirical.

She now had it all, money. And she let her kitten out to play, only it wasn't a kitten she released, it a damn f*****g Succubus, both literally and figuratively.

She heard he phone buzz and picked it up to find a text from Kevin,

'Can I see you, please? It's been years; give me a chance to talk to you.'

'Talk about what?'

'Us, you just walked out, I never even got a chance to fix whatever I did, assuming I did something.'

'There is no us Kevin, we ended 4 years ago, and that's how it's going to stay.'

'Let me just talk to you then, just talk.'

She read the text and threw her phone aside. There was no point, Kevin doesn't know the person she had become, he thought he could manipulate her if he came close enough, but she also knew that's what he intended to do and she had not the slightest patience to be toyed with again in her life, she closed that chapter when she turned 21.

She sat there a few more hours reflecting on her life and before she knew it, night began to fall. She cooked herself a light supper and went to bed for she had an early morning, and so many meetings too. She had to visit a few farms that had been infested by pests and deliberate on the next course of action before the company incurred more loses.