Chapter1
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#Luna’s POV#
I quickly ran in and locked the door but he never stopped banging it from outside. He banged so hard that I was scared the door would break down. I quickly pushed the couch against the door and put a few things on it so he wouldn't be able to break in.
My breath was hot and shaky, and I was sweating. I reached for the switch and flicked on the lights. He had stopped banging the door but I stood and watched it for a minute to confirm. A sharp gasp escaped my lips as I felt hands on my neck from behind- s**t!! He broke in through the kitchen window.
I tried to fight and kick him in the groin, but he landed a punch on my face that made my head tilt.
“b***h”He whispered.
I flipped my face back up, only to receive another hard punch that had me falling to the ground unconsciously.
He pulled me up with my hair and ripped off my shirt.
“Let. Me. Go. You asshole!!” I fought.
Then, I saw his fist lunge straight at my face and…..BAMM!!
I gasped as I sprang up from my bed- f**k!! I was having this f*****g nightmare again, this was the fourth time I had this nightmare in my first 5 days of college. It was my past experience of how my ex r***d me 4 years ago in this same college, but I didn't understand why my brain didn't get that that was in the past, I have to forget about it!!
I tilted my neck to look at the clock hung on my wall.
“s**t!!” I cursed as I quickly shed off the duvet and got out of bed. I was almost late for today's lecture, I only had 9 minutes to get ready.
I stripped myself naked in the room as I grabbed my toothbrush then headed to the bathroom. I brushed my teeth while taking my bath at the same time. I rushed into the room again and spotted some clothes on my studying desk- my room was such a big mess.
I grabbed the clothes and sniffed them- well, they were still good. I quickly put them on and dried my hair.
I was done within 18 minutes.
I didn't bother making my bed before setting out. It took another 5 minutes before I arrived at the general purpose classroom and sat beside Elnora, she was a new friend I made on my first day.
“Good morning, why are you late?” she whispered.
“Girl, I don't know. It seems my alarm is broken” I replied.
“I see”
I listened to the professor, keeping a straight face as if I was listening, meanwhile I was deep in thoughts of what happened 4 years back.
{flashback}
I got a text from Ryan, my boyfriend, asking me to come over to his dorm. I gladly agreed and got my make up and everything done before going to the first floor where his dorm was. That wasn't my first time going to his dorm, we've been dating for 8 months since the fall semester and I could tell he loved me dearly.
We met here in college since we were taking the same course and we constantly became friends, then we moved from being friends to lovers somehow.
I knocked on the door, he opened it and led me in gently. I sat on his comfy bed as he shut the door.
“So…umm….. I saw your text and, i- replied. Why the urgent call?”I asked as he sat beside me.
“Come on. I just miss your company”.
“I see. I'm hungry”
“I'm not shocked. You're always hungry”
I chuckled, “f**k you”.
My back lowered to rest on the bed.
“There's no food here,”He said.
“s**t!!”I mumbled.
Awkward silence took over. Then, he brought his face closer to mine and kissed me, “have you thought about it yet?” He asked, still towering me.
“Yes. I'm not ready, yet”
“When will you be?” He asked.
“I don't know”
“Come on, Luna. I'm your boyfriend, and you're starving me.”
“Ryan, I get. But, I also had boyfriends before you and they also starved. I don't want to get used and get dumped”
“I won't dump you. I love you”
“I know,” I said.
He sighed.
I shook my head and tried to get up but he was still hovering over me, not giving me a chance to rise.
I looked into his eyes, “stop, let me sit”
He refused and pinned me on the bed by my waist.
“Stop” I giggled.
“I know you want this. I see it in your eyes” He said as his hand went under my skirt.
“Ryan, I'm serious. Stop” I said.
He turned a deaf ear and continued.
I pushed him off me, making him hit his back on the edge of his desk- that would hurt a lot.
He groaned in pain, so I quickly got up.
“I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. You just pushed me” I apologized, my voice trembling.
He snatched my arm and quickly pinned me to the wall.
I screamed in pain as my back hit the wall.
“Ryan, I'm sorry” I begged.
He shot me the coldest glare I've ever seen in my whole existence.
He unbuttoned my shirt as I reached for the glass flower vase on his desk. I reached it and gripped it hard before smashing it on his head.
I didn't bother to grab my bag, I only ran for it.
I almost arrived at my dorm when I noticed he was just a feet away behind me.
I opened the door, quickly ran in and locked the door but he never stopped banging the door from the outside. He banged so hard that I was scared the door would break down. I quickly pushed the couch against the door and put a few things on it so he wouldn't be able to break in.
My breath was hot and shaky, and I was sweating. I reached for the switch and flicked on the lights. He had stopped banging the door but I stood and watched it for a minute to confirm. A sharp gasp escaped my lips as I felt hands on my neck from behind- s**t!! He broke in through the kitchen window.
I tried to fight and kick him in the groin, but he landed a punch on my face that made my head tilt.
“b***h”He whispered.
I flipped my face back up, only to receive another hard punch that had me falling to the ground unconsciously.
He pulled me up with my hair and ripped off my shirt.
“Let. Me. Go. You asshole!!” I fought.
Then, I saw his fist lunge straight at my face and…..BAMM!!
I felt all my strength get sucked up.
I didn't know how it happened but the only thing I knew was he stripped me naked and r***d me brutally like an animal.
As My eyelids parted slowly, my gaze kissed the sunray streaking into my dorm from the windows. I felt my head and thigh hurt badly but I managed to stand up, though my legs were shaking- who knows what that asshole did to me.
I couldn't get hold of my emotions, I burst into tears loudly in my dorm. I was alone, no one to console me. I sat and cried beside the dried blood on the tiles.
How could he? How could he r**e me and dump me here like a scumbag? How could he take my virginity with force?!! How!!! Was he that cruel? What if his sister got r***d like this? Would he like that?
I sat and cried in silence for over an hour before getting up to go to the bathroom where I also cried while sitting in the bathtub till I fell asleep.
I woke up, still in the water- I was a big mess. Look what he turned me into. I should have known he was someone like that. How could I have ignored all the signs because I thought he LOVED me?
~
Weeks later, I decided to stop killing myself slowly like my bestie, Natasha advised me to. I started going to classes again. I noticed Ryan had stopped coming to classes- I was glad he was feeling guilty for his bullshit. I knew I'd have committed suicide if not for my bestie, she was my only true friend, my unpaid therapist.
One Thursday, I didn't know what happened to me but I felt all dizzy and slipped in the bathroom. I got a bruise on my shoulder but I was glad I didn't die. I didn't know why I felt all dizzy but it probably was because I was depressed and over thinking.
I got an appointment with the doctor on Friday as usual, the third Friday of the month was always my check up day.
After waiting, the doctor called me into his office.
“Doc, please tell me I'm not sick. I feel all dizzy these days,”I said.
“You're not sick”. His words felt like cold water poured all over me to calm my nerves. I was amazed, completely over the moon because I didn't have enough money to treat a goddamn illness.
“Thank Goodn-”
He cut me off, “you're pregnant. Three weeks”
My happiness was drained. I came to the conclusion that maybe I misheard him.
“Pardon?” I asked.
“You're three weeks pregnant, miss”He said as he brought out an envelope from under his desk.
His lips parted to speak but I didn't let him speak, I only snatched the envelope and made my way out of his office and the hospital.
“What the f**k!!!”I screamed out loud on the streets.
How could I be f*****g pregnant, I was only 18!! And I was f*****g pregnant?!! s**t!
I headed straight to Ryan's dorm, I broke in without knocking and I met the shock of my life! Ryan, my Boyfr…..no, ex and Natasha, my best friend kissing each other passionately- The same Natasha who said she hated Ryan for r****g me.
I fought my tears back- after all….. f**k both of them!!
I didn't even bother closing the door behind me because who knows if they were planning to murder me now.
Natasha flinched but I didn't care, I only came here for business and not bullshit.
“I'm pregnant”
- Writer
