Unforgettable

Moving on

FATIMA'S 

People were coming in and paying their condolences, I was still not in my right mind. Ammi was lying down looking at people and making faces, she didn't know what was going on. I suddenly burst into tears, I felt sorry for her growing up without a father. "Allah in you we trust, please help me get through this," I thought crying. 

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It's been days since we Iost Bashir, I couldn't stand entering his room or mine, there were so many memories so I always slept with Ammi holding her tight. She asks about her dad from time to time so I tell her he went on a long journey to a place much better than we are. 

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I was in the living room holding ammi because she was sleeping in my arms when I heard a knock on the door, I dropped her on the couch and I went to open the door. I couldn't believe who I was seeing, it was Khadija, how could she think of coming. and before I could control my emotions it already got the best of me, I slapped her

"How dare you come here? you have no shame at all."

"Am so sorry Fatima?" she said crying " I understand how you feel and I know you hate me right now but I'm here to come clean. I and Bashir weren't dating at all, I tried persuading him but he refused to say he loved you so much. So I decided to make things up to separate the both of you...." 

I couldn't believe it, so he wasn't giving any excuses when he said he wasn't dating her? And I called him and made him rush here and in the process, I lost him, I started a new chapter of tears again. regrets, tears, regrets, tears, it went on for a couple of days. 

4 years later 

"Ammi you better come downstairs or are you going to be late for school" I called

 she came downstairs and we went outside but instead of entering the car, she sat on a pile of rocks near the Car looking grumpy. 

"what is it again? "I asked

" I can't find the hair clip dad Gave me for my 3rd birthday"

 "it's with me you left it in my room" I answered 

" talking about your dad the more you grow up the more you look like him," I  said smiling, she was so happy, she was smiling brightly. 

"Now get up let's go to school" she looked at me with a blank excretion. 

"can't I just skip school, today mommy?"

" Forget it " I replied. 

I drove her to school and went back home to do my remaining chores. 

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 on Saturday and I decided to spoil my baby so I took her to 365 grills and hookah. they sell the best chips and chicken there. And as usual, my Ammi was looking sweet but for a reason, she kept asking me to tell her about her dad, she only remembered a little about him. 

Her 8 birthday was in 2 days batula, mama,saadah, and believe it or not Khadija were all there helping me blow the balloons and arrange some things. I wanted it to be her best birthday ever, and about me and Khadija I forgave her because everybody makes mistakes and it isn't fair to judge her over one mistake even though it was a huge one, she hasn't had it easy too. 

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Today was my baby's birthday September 16. she wore a milk color dress and a head chain she looked so pretty and simple, it took me hours before I got her curls done but I did it anyway. 

Later on, mommy came but mama hadn't arrived yet which is unlike her. ammi's friends also came, of course, my friends were there too. I was holding a tray of homemade Chapman in glass cups when mama(bashirs mom) came In, she looked pale. she walked towards me and held my hand tightly. 

"there's someone here to see you," she said looking sad

" OK whoever it is the person can come in" and mama shouted come in. 

Noooooooo way my eyes are deceiving me right? I was in shock, I dropped the tray I was carrying. I can't believe who I was seeing, it was Bashir...... I fainted at the spot.