Robin I lost my brother three years ago. Since then, I have tried everything to stop the pain. Drinking helps for a while. Spending money on useless things helps for a while. And women, they help most of all. I have been with many. My friends call me a ladies’ man, but the truth is that being with someone is the only thing that gives me a short break from the ache inside. There are other ways I try to deal with it too. When I am on the football field, I let out some of that anger building up inside me. Every time I tackle someone, I picture my brother’s face and think about how I could have stopped him that day. He was angry at me. We argued, and he drove off in that car while he was upset. He never came back. The crash killed him instantly. The next time I saw him, he was lying cold

