I'm just a Child

Episode 2

✨I'm just a child✨

Is that what most kids go through? It was even announced on Television that kids in Asian and African countries are mostly affected by it. Perhaps we should ask God whom my Sunday school teacher said lives in heaven and created everything not to create children again.

Speaking about my Sunday school teacher, Mrs Bridget a lovely woman. She's the only one apart from my friends that offer me attention and shows me love. She's a great woman. Her kids; Lily, Eli and Angel are always happy and vibrant. Eli who is six always come to children weekly lesson with his palmtop and we always play games together. Lily will share her cookies with everyone and little Angel never left her Daddy's side. Each time we dismiss, there always took them home with their mum in their car and I always see them gigling. But mine is always different. My siblings will look scornfully at me and call me disoriented; my dad will shout at me whenever I didn't make it to the car on time; and mum will drag me into the car most times. No one ever fasten my sit belt since I turned five. They assume I'm of age and should be able to do it. Anyways I do fasten it or leave it

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when I couldn't. No one do even look at my side inside the car as everyone do focus on their phone or some times, Dad and mum would be chit chatting. I always think about my Sunday school teacher's family and also wish to be part of them. Why can't my Parents and siblings be like my Sunday School teacher's family.

Unlike my Sunday school teacher, my class teacher; Miss Jessica is another pain in the neck. She doesn't treat me too well. She always shout out me and most other kids. Dropping an object mistakenly will earn you a cream from her. You earn a spank at your back when you doze off during lesson. And she would not try to know the cause. I do pity Lawson nicknamed fatty and Mr Sleep who always receive numerous spanks daily from her. Lawson sleeps even during break time. I think something is actually wrong with him and my teacher supposed to find about it instead of punishing him. Smiling in the class is also a problem. She's indeed bitter and these earned her the name Miss Bitter. I do wonder why the school still retain her. Probably because she's a relative to the headmaster. She's there for her own good but to the detriment of the kids.

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But come to think of it, she might have experienced bitterness and not loved like me. Most persons are outcomes of what they've been through, so are being shaped into that. Any of each way does not guarantee treating others the same way you were treated. I believe that the people that know the important of love are those that didn't receive any love. Like me, they know the pain of not being loved and every glimpse of love radiates on them.

According to my Sunday School teacher, the Bible says" Do not repay evil with evil". I can't forget this because she also taught us a song from it.

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" When someone treat you well,

Treat him well.

When someone treat you bad,

Treat him well.

Never ever pay with evil.

Because God hates evil.

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Be good para para.

Be good para para.

Because God hates evil".

She also taught us this one

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If you're a child of God,

Say no to evil.

If you're a child of God,

Flee from evil,

God is not evil

So His child should not be evil.

Only the Devil and his children are evil.

So I learnt that no matter what I passed through or how I'm being treated, I should not do bad and evil should not be found in me.

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I'm just a child who doesn't know his right or left.

Shouting scares me alot.

Pushing me away makes me feel unloved.

The marks and pains on my bodies seem to become future scars.

I'm beginning to wish either I was never born or I should turn to an adult.

I could always here the echoes of numerous blames rendered to me daily.

I should be cherished.

I should be given adequate attention.

I should be groomed.

I should be loved.

I should be guided.

I should be encouraged.

I should be trained to become like you.

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Guide me today and see me tomorrow.

Are adults meant not to supervise and support the development process of a child, which then will lead to the child's autonomy? Is it not at this stage, that a strong emotional bond is created between the child and the care providers? My question still is;why is my case different?

Oh! Perhaps something happened before of during my birth.

Or, I might be a reincarnated ancestor, so should be already developed, independent and know everything about life.

But I don't look of any of my ancestors whose pictures I have seen. Maybe I do look like any or I'm an assumed one; I'm also supposed to be informed.

I overheard Mrs Lawrence;young mothers' assistant instructor during all sectional meetings in Church one day telling young mothers that a child's encounter at every stage of his life contributes immersely on the child's future.

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I was moody through out that day, thinking of what my future will bring. Whether I will end up as a happy, blooming man who experienced love or a bitter man. Offcourse as expected, none of my family member tried finding out what the problem was. Perhaps they were happy because the pain in their neck just subside.

Should adults not see children as separate beings, innocent and in need of protection and training by the adults around them?