Abandoned Heart

Drink and Smile

That morning i had a severe headache like my head was used for druming.

So i stay inside my room, I anyway didn't have any lectures, since two of my lectures got canceled. I wanted to go out to do my project but my headache kept me tied to the bed the whole morning and afternoon.

After getting a good sleep, i woke up around 3pm. Today there is a football match on the campus, i love watching football and basketball a lot. I learnt that from my Dad, we do go for practice during the weekend and it is really amazing. As I said earlier, i don't miss a single match.

So i took a wash, dressed in my usual ways and prepare to go to the university.

I came down from the room, ready to go to the university. i was shock to see my boss frowning on the couch in the living room. He was with his laptop pressing it.

I didn't know he was at home. Normally at this time he supposed to be at work.

"Sir, what happened," I asked panicking. My boss is not someone who easily stay at home, so i was really scared that something bad has happened.

He stop pressing his laptop and stare at me for a while. Then he got up from the couch.

"You bloody b***h you destroyed my life,"he breath out so heavily.

"boss.. please ...what have i done...I am sorry" I apologized for something i didn't even know.

"What have you... accepting as nanny is a crime, i shouldn't have bring you in the first place" He was screaming.

I felt like my heart stopped for a second. I couldn't think, not just because he was screaming, but my heart was throbbing from what i just heart.

" can you at least tell me what i did, I trying speaking,"

"could you shut up, you are not but useless like absolutely useless. I though you could be different, but even a fool is better than you."he said.

I was trying to understand to the situation because i can't remember doing anything to warrant this kind of insult. i couldn't take it anymore it is becoming too much way too much for me to bear but i can't run away if i do where can i get another job after all he is my I'm.

"you could have been in the orphanage home or on the street, it pays than me wasting my precious money on you as salary,"he was screaming and also trying to control himself.

He was totally like a crazy beast. He was screaming and cursing me.

I wanted to get up and run away without hearing his words, but i couldn't. My head was hitting and my heart was beating so fast.

So I couldn't stop hearing all these unbearable,unexpected word from my boss my crush, what else should i be expecting from him.

Finally i could come back to myself, i stare at him for a seconds before i walked back to my room.

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I don't know how came to the university. I was walking towards the faculty and it was already 4:30 pm, the match has started but i don't have any mood to go for it.

I walked inside our faculty building, and get on the elevator. I press the 10th floor of the highest floor.

There are a lot of empty lectures hall which have been abandoned and it has become a storage room. Already i have created an empty space to spend my time alone.

I entered into the storage room, i could not hold my tears again . I burst into tears, i cried as much as i wants then all of the suddenly the thought of my boyfriend came to me.

Yeah it has been quite nw that we saw last or talked but then i remember he is out of the country.

I don't even have a cell phone to communicate with anyone, infact how will i has since no one cares about me, remembering makes me to cry even more harder.

But i am determined not lose hope nor my job, i will stick to it till eternity or nature decided to favor me.

I brought out my book for studying, i flip through the pages, calmly, and carefully studying.

I told you studying is not my problem because am darm good at studying and i love it.

My head hurt me so badly and looking at the time it is already late, I packed up my books into my bag and walked out of my hideout place.

I imagine life, my boyfriend who doesn't care about me and most importantly my crush or will i say my boss. I walked up to a shop where they do sell wine, I ask him to give 5 bottles of red wine.

I thought of what to do to easy my fear, my worry, my idleness and lastly my loneliness there was no better answer than take wine.

I don't take wine that much but today i need it to clear my head out, am dying slowly if possible.

I wish sometimes my parent should have taking me along with them or better still give me a siblings that will be with me at all. The thought of it alone gives me headache.

Then i remember when i first set my eyes on my boss, he was everything a girl needed but remembering what happened today makes me to develop hatred for him but he still remains my crush my boss.

I kept ordering for more bottles, while i take each one of them, i don't rush because I have the all day in the world.

"She hasn't returned since morning," Bryan worried said to his friend.

"You worry too much, she will definitely return to the house," his friends said calming him down.

"But where could she have been," Bryan asked.

"Hey let's have some drinks," he poured the drinks on cups.

I couldn't have enough of the drink but to my greatest surprise someone pick me up.

He took me to his car. Who the hell is this, I asked myself before i pass out.