HE IS MINE FOREVER

my pregnancy.

after finding out about my pregnancy, I was both happy and worried . asking myself what could i possibly do for my poor little baby who was to have a useless bastard for a mother like me and i didn't know whether to tell Solo that i was expecting his child. many thoughts where running through may mind.later, when the nurse saw how worried I was, she asked me" did you mistakenly get pregnant?" I was asking myself what could I possibly say . should i say yes or no but no even though he was my boss i enjoyed the feeling of that moment more so i was to involved so couldnt say so after all at wasn't his fault at all.. the images flushed into my mind, my simple scared screams and his moans. all were in my ears. i blamed myself for letting my desires control me. then

tears started flowing on my cheeks but deep down I knew it wasn't his fault alone but mine too. i should have ignored him.

I then had the nurse suggest., " why don't you abort".

what?? even by hearing the word abortion made me go crazy. I don't know if the nurse had added one more word, I would be taken to hospital for the people who lost their minds. because i would have done some thing bad to her.

later I decided to rest abit on the hospital beds so that I could calm my nerves. hours later, I woke up and picked up my phone and bag to leave.

on reaching home, I was wondering on how and where to begin from telling my friend that am pregnant so I decided to keep it for awhile from her.

she was busy doing house work and when I reached she hurriedly came to welcome me

" Stevia where on Earth have you been? I was worried sick about you. ," she said. but I didn't respond to her question. I just told her I need some rest.

"ok. let me help you with your bag".

I went inside my house and slept again.

I cried every time but this time I wasn't crying because of me but because I had hidden the truth from one friend that I had.

one day I couldn't bear hiding anymore so I decided to tell her.

Stevia: am pregnant. I said it from no where not I didn't hestate for a single minute. she couldn't believe what I was saying at that time.

" I f you are pregnant why don't you go ahead and tell him" she suggested.

yes it made sense but I couldn't do it.

looking at my face, she noticed that I didn't want to tell him I was determined to raise the child alone.

" whatever your decision is, I stay by your side". she said.

getting used to my condition, with my friend's help , life didn't become hard as I had expected it to be. but life changed later.

Stella

everything in my life changed after my conversation with Stella.

one day, I was seated on the veranda , I suddenly saw a car pack in front of me . this time my stomach had grown much bigger. when I saw her I recognized her because she always passed by Solo's house for some issues I didn't know.

I welcomed her and told her to come inside but she peeped inside my house and refused to enter .

" do you call this a house?". she asked

she looked at me mockingly that I prayed that at least the ground would open up to swallow me.

after a long observation of me, she stayed standing and started stating why she had come.

"Stevia?" she called out my name.

" yes" I replied to her calm.

" I want you to forget and stay away from Solo also never you tell him that you are pregnant", she said.

I couldn't believe her at all. wondering why she was saying so.

" I know you are curious about what I said. but let me tell you , me and Solo are getting engaged next week. "

on hearing what she said I was so disappointed and heart broken after hearing the news .

deep in thoughts. I always thought that maybe one day he he would look for me but he didn't.

I tried to calm myself and told her I would do whatever she wants.

after she had left tears started flowing down on my cheeks but though I calmed down and started doing my work again. but just the fact of me denying my father's child the right to his unborn child made me even more hurt inside. though I tried many times to dentist the fact that I love him , I just wanted him to know he would soon be a father.

after spending all my day thinking about him , my unborn child and the engagement, I want in went in the town to buy next days flour that I would use to make pancakes to sell.

meeting him.

however much I tried to avoid the situation, Solo didn't stop looking for me even though I thought he didn't.

he had post all my pictures on all his social media networks and Televisions but I couldn't see them because I had no television nor a phone. the phone I had got from working at his home, I sold it because I had nothing to do.

when I was in the market,I saw everyone looking at me, I got scared and started walking as first as I could. to avoid the geeze of everyone around the market. but before I could leave , I was curious to know why they looked at me. I tried calling one of them but when I was about to ask him, my friend called me and told me that it was late we have to go home.she also told me I had a visit when I asked her, she told she didn't know the person.

it seemed that my friend knew something so I apologized to the man and left.

As soon as I stepped foot in my compound, I saw a Benz car packed up in my compound, with my stomach protruding outside.

as I was coming closer and closer, I saw a shadow of some one I seemed to know but I tried not to mind because am poor and I couldn't fit to be be his wife or girlfriend so I stopped thinking about him.

I kept coming closer and when I reached him, I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I was filled with tears of joy , he also didn't give it any second thoughts and hugged me both of us crying. after a long hug and in his senses, he suddenly felt that he wasn't to close to me because my stomach was distracting him. when he faced down, he saw how my stomach was bigger than the one I had before all he asked was," are you pregnant?"

I said I was. "is it possible that he is mine?" when I was about to say yes, I suddenly remembered that Stella had warned me not to tell him. so I pulled myself from his embrace and told him no. he was so disappointed so he quickly left. my heart was in pain when I saw him leave but I had no choice but to be strong.