My Missing Girl

Cindy and Jansen moment(III)

Jansen and Brili are left alone in the living room now. The awkwardness was so obvious, they had been together for half an hour but there was no conversation between them. Cindy was busy helping her mother in the back, while Jackson went out to buy beer and snacks to accompany their evening chat.

The situation was so awkward until Jansen spoke to break the silence between them.

"Brilliant"

"Did you call me?" Brili replied in a harsh voice.

"So who else is Brili? If not you"

Brili snorted in annoyance she didn't like being alone with Jansen "what do you want to call me?"

"I just wanted to ask to be sure"

"say"

"You like Cindy?"

"What's your business?"

Jansen tried to answer calmly, Brili likes to provoke emotions. It's just like Cindy's complaint to her when she told about Brili's true nature.

"Yes of course it's my business because Cindy is my lover"

"Tsk, you just fell in love? Not yet a wife. So don't get excited yet. You're not necessarily married." Brili's mouth was very smooth when she said that, she wanted to tape her mouth because of her impudently.

"Yes, you are right, but Cindy and I believe in what is now. But for later we can think about it later. Because no one knows the future, you understand that Brili? That's why you said that"

"Aahhh yes, do you have any intention of snatching Cindy from me?"

"Of course, I believe Cindy is my soul mate"

Jansen smiled sadly at Brili's straightforward answer. Turns out the man was quite confident, Jansen's mind said. But Jansen doesn't care about that, so let it run as it should.

It was a long time of silence again until Brili said "but I envy you because Cindy loves you so much. The look in her eyes that is so sincere when she looks at you is not like when she looks at me"

"Come on, Brili, you can't force everything you want. But when God takes action, everything will just change. Like me and Cindy in the future, it won't necessarily be the way we want it to be. So just act naturally."

Brili tried to study Jansen's words, there was bitterness in every word. Feels like not want to let go but there is a bit of coercion that makes him have to do it. "You mean? Would you give up if God were against you and Cindy?"

Jansen smiled brightly at Brili and nodded in response "because there is a giant wall between us that is difficult to cross"

"You mean?"

"You'll find out later, but when it does happen. I trust you to take care of Cindy."

"You are so random, you want to release Cindy for me?"

"Tsk, it's not that easy. I told you that if God doesn't bless me with Cindy. But if so, how can I release my angel for you who is not clear?"

"Well, still I will support God not to bless you"

"You selfish, I feel sorry after saying that"

"There's no point in you regretting it"

***

It was late at night but the game of truth or dare was still going on. Jackson was the one who suggested earlier because if you just drink without any games, it will be tasteless later. As a result, truth or dare is the choice. Although there is a little sense of anxiety if something unexpected happens. Because this game is a bit of an adrenaline rush in unexpected content, such as honest statements that don't want to be answered and challenges that exceed expectations.

Now it was Brili's turn to spin the bottle, they waited a long time. In the end, the bottle stopped turning towards Cindy, and Brili chose "truth or dare,"

Cindy was silent for a long time, she weighed the right choice for her so she wouldn't be trapped like before. Because it was Jackson's turn and he was the one who got hit. Cindy chose the challenge and Jackson challenged her to kiss Jansen's lips, crazy isn't it? it's normal but not for Jansen. Finally, Cindy just kissed her lover's chin to meet the crazy challenge of Jackson.

"Truth alone" answered in the end.

"Okay, then I want you to be honest with me. Do you like me?"

"Like?"

"Yeah, I mean have you ever liked in the sense that I'm a man, have you ever been interested in being my lover?"

"You're crazy Brili!" Name scolded.

"Just answer what's so difficult?"

"You're looking to die, Bri" Jackson joined in. Meanwhile, Jansen was just an observer.

"Of course never. Who are you?" Cindy replied a little stuttering at the beginning.

"I heard a tone of lies there" Brili inquired with her ignorant eyes.

"There's no way I'm lying" evaded Cindy

"But your ears are red"

"But that doesn't mean I'm lying!" Cindy said

Brili is still not satisfied with Cindy's answer, so she is still trying to get the answer her heart desires. But still not Cindy if she's not good at dodging herself. Until finally Jansen mediates this useless feud "that's enough! Don't force him, Brili!"

"Tsk, you don't get involved in my business, Jansen's brother"

"It's just a game if I may remind you"

"But it's still me and Cindy's business."

"It's stopped you two" Jackson interceded for the umpteenth time. If it wasn't mediated, there would be endless commotion. The cold war of men in love is scarier than the debate over the choice of the country's leaders.

Cindy, who felt that she was the topic of this argument, calmed Jansen by stroking the back of her hand, she uttered her lips silently "End this, babe. I beg you." And in the end, Jansen relented and did not continue. Leaving Brili to grumble incoherently because she was dissatisfied, and the decision to end the final games for fear that the cold war would continue. Brili was still grumbling about scolding her manager when she arrived in the bedroom that Cindy's mother had prepared.

"Why are you defending that Jansen!"

"I'm not defending him, Brilli"

"I don't want to hear your defense!?"

"No, but I'm trying to be neutral."

"But it feels like you're defending the man" Brili was still adamant.

Jackson let out a resigned breath "not like that, but like this. I'm just speculating if there is a man in the position who hears another man asking his girlfriend, does she like that man? Like that"

"According to you ?"

"Of course I will be angry, so don't be crazy"

"It's just a game"

"But you ask with your heart, it's not called Brili West's brother's game," said Jansen in a loud and firm voice.

"But still," he said in a very low voice.

"I just realized now, so if you ask a question, use your brain, don't just talk."

Brili was silent and this was used by Jackson to advise his foster children "if you were in Jansen's position, what would you do?"

"I will be angry"

"Well, you know that's why if you are stupid, don't take care of it, go to sleep. Tomorrow we will go home early. In the afternoon you have a schedule"

"I don't want it if I'm not with Cindy"

-***

Early in the morning Cindy and Jansen traveled to the beach which was a two-hour drive from Cindy's house. Deliberately leaving early in the morning to get the sunrise which is difficult to enjoy while living in the capital. They haven't seen nature for a long time, the last time they went to the beach about two years ago was a long time ago. Since they were still in Ilsan, they used it to visit the beach they used to visit when they were in college.

Jansen walked behind to follow every step Cindy walked in front of him. Now and then Cindy looks back and gives her sweet smile to her beloved.

Jansen enjoyed the smile deeply, he thought that one day the smile would no longer be for him. It feels like when you think about it, your heart feels tight.

"Babe, are you daydreaming?" I can't believe that now Jansen's steps stopped right in front of Cindy, the girl who had been watching Jansen for a long time was lost in his world. Cindy realized a moment ago when she called Jansen but there was no response. That's why Cindy turned around and saw Jansen was still quite far behind her, I don't know what Jansen was thinking.

"Why are you hmm?" asked Cindy again.

Jansen just shook his head and took Cindy's hand in his. "Let's sit down," he said.

Cindy just obeyed, she leaned her head on Jansen's shoulder which was so comfortable to lean on.

"Baby?"

"Yes?"

"What if we finished?"

Cindy was shocked to hear Jansen's sudden statement "Why are you Jansen, lately you like to talk about it? You know I don't like it!" Cindy replied irritably.

"I know, but we promised first, if this happens we have to have a good talk"

"And you want it like that?"

"It's not like you think, at least I can prepare first"

"Looking at me?"

"Um, I didn't even think about it. But if God wants it like that, what can I do?"

"Sounds like you sincerely want to leave me" I don't know since when Cindy had tears in her eyes.

"Don't cry, right, we promised, after all, we still have to be on good terms, babe"

"But you're evil Jansen, keep asking. I'm not—" Cindy's cries broke and Jansen tried to calm his lover down.

"Cup cup don't cry, sorry" Jansen carried Cindy in his warm embrace.

"Why do you like to ask questions like that now, the Brili case for sure?" Jansen was silent, surely Cindy's guess was right.

"What did Brili say to you? When it was just the two of you yesterday?"

"Not here but me"

"Say what?"

"I asked, does he like you or not?"

"Continue?"

"His answer sounded sincere when he said he liked you"

"If Brili says that, will you just leave me like that to Brili?"

"It's not like that, but —" now Jansen also looked in the mirror, unable to hold back the feeling of tightness at the thought of Cindy not being able to be with him in the future.

"Please don't talk like this again."

"But babe, you know that our situation can't penetrate the existing big wall, if no one gives in, one of them still can't. But if you give in just because of my love for you or vice versa, it will be more sinful later"

"So what do you want?" Cindi asked, stressed because she was too excited.

"Just disperse? But my heart doesn't want to be separated from you"

"Let's calm ourselves first, let's go home"

Cindy stood up and let go of Jansenn's arms and left, leaving Jansen alone there.