Vengeance or Love

1st day at College

August 1 2019

Aurora's Pov

When I reached college we were all asked to take a seat in a closed auditorium and wait for the ceremony.

I sat in the last row .People were eying me curiously as I was the only one who is sitting at last, others were trying to take the front seats or seats which are near to the stage. They all are very enthusiastic , ofcourse they would be . If things were the same as a month back I would have been the same . But I am not myself anymore. A part of me is left 2000 years back where my Damon is.

Auditorium is filled with students and volunteers . There is too much noise just like in the Damon's weekly court where major decisions were taken.

Arrgghhh I am again thinking about him.

There is not a single second when I can forget about him and the guilt follows. God will never forgive me for what I have done to him , even I myself cant forgive .

I was lost in my thoughts but sudden silence took me to present reality again. The dean is now on stage and he starts speaking. He welcomed everyone and then starts telling about the college and other usual inspirational stories.

I am trying to focus on what he is saying and not getting distracted again. But still I got lost in my thoughts again and again. In this one month I was never 100 percent in present situation. Getting distracted is common to me now, I don't know how I am going to study.

Its already 2 hours and different different people are coming to stage and sharing their experiences as a Doctor . I am so out of focus now and bored , I don't know I still want to be Doctor or not. I really don't know what I want to be anymore. I really can't be here any more second , I want to leave , I want to cry , I want to cry for the stupidity I have done hurting Damon, I want to cry for not been pregnent , I want to cry for not been born 2000 years back. I can't take it anymore I don't deserve anything not even a right to fulfill my dream.

With these thoughts I suddenly stood and was about to leave but then my heart skipped a beat.