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Chapter 4

“I never meant to hurt you Jasper, you meant everything to me.”

“Then why Alex? Why did you do what you did?”

“It wasn’t just about losing Alissa. Well most of it was but I made her promises ones I couldn’t keep one’s I wish I could’ve but I lost a part of my heart the day she died and I didn’t know how to cope with it.”

“You could’ve come to us Alex, you could’ve come to me.”

“I know but I didn’t want to bother you with the down hill spiral I was heading down. I felt like I was not only keeping my word to her but to you as well. I didn’t feel worthy of your love. I felt trapped, Jasp. She was my sister and I felt as though I failed her that I hadn’t done enough to help her through the dualises and try to keep her alive after her diagnosis. I was in a bad place, Jasp, a very bad place. You and Luca didn’t know how hard it had hit me. I was hitting rock bottom. I was taking drugs and drinking to contour the pain I felt inside with losing my only sister. I couldn't take it anymore, Jasp, I was slowly dying inside. I needed to get away. I needed to sort my s**t out. I needed to get myself straight and off all of the drugs and alcohol. I enrolled in a program up north which meant leaving you all behind. I wasn't allowed any contact with anyone. I had a shrink to help me through my loss and doctors around me almost all day to get me through the detox and rehsex

They had to make sure that I was physically and mentally stable before I could go back out in the world alone.”

“You could’ve come back after I would’ve understood. I loved you Alex and you left without saying a word and no contact. Until now.”

“I was advised to keep away from the things that may trigger me back into what had started me off on my down hill spiral. I want to blame you Jasp. I just didn’t think being around you at the time was a good idea and would bring back everythg no wanted to put to the darkest part of m6 head and lock them away.”

“And now why are you here now?”

“I realise that I was stupid to ever consider putting you behind me cause I have never once forgotten about you Jasp. I still love you.”

Tears spilled out of his eyes. “I can’t Alex, I just can't. I’m scared you will

leave me again without a word and I’ll be back to square fuckin one with my buisness to keep me going and a broken heart. I don't, I just can't.

I moved closer to him, wiping his eyes . I looked into his eyes. “I promise I’m not going anywhere. I’m here to stay.”

“I can’t believe you, I’m sorry.”

“Just give me one last chance, Jasp, please.” I pleaded.

He opened his mouth to give me an answer I didn’t want and wasn’t willing to take. I pressed my lips on his and kissed him with my hands in his face as I nipped at his lip. He gasped and I plunged my tongue in and he moaned . I began to h kiss him passionately he returned my kiss and I straddled him kissing him hungrily my d**k throbbing and I took off his bathrobe damn he still slept naked. My hands travelled over his abs and he moaned trapping my hair in his fingers deepening the kiss our tongues feverishly tangled around each other. “Let’s take this somewhere more comfortable.” I suggested and he hummed.

I pulled myself up making sure I didn’t lose contact with his lips. He followed and he jumped into my arms, his full naked body on display as I carried him into his bedroom. Lay him on the bed as he tried to take my clothes off. “Steady on baby.”

“I want you inside me now.”

I grinned it was everything I had wanted since I knew about the wedding and longer. I stripped out of my clothes and knelt on the bed dipping down sliding my tongue in his ass he cursed and moaned. I slid my tongue up his crack and over the vein of his d**k enveloping his d**k in my mouth he cursed and I slid a finger in his as I sucked his almost hard d**k. I added more digits, he moaned. His d**k hard and leaking. “Godddamit Alex f**k me already.”

I slid my fingers into his ass and sucked his d**k and swirled my tongue around his slit before grabbing his legs and putting them in my shoulders before I buried my d**k in his hole. “f**k baby your so tight.” I say smashing my lips on his kissing him hungrily pumping in and out of him swallowing his moans. I gripped into his hips thrusting harder and faster. My balls tightened and exploded as we both came together.

His legs fell to the bed and I collapsed next to him.

“You need to go, Alex.”

What?

Jasper

What in the hell was I even thinking? Let alone doing when my high finally came down I realised this was a f*****g big mistake. I hadn't had s*x for years and Alex just happened to be there and the electric current building up between us made me do one stupid thing that I knew I would regret once I came down from our high.

"What do you mean, go?"

"I can't do this Alex I'm sorry I should've never let y.."

He rolled over towering over me. His green eyes glow in mine, "You did Jas, we did. I want to be with you Jas, ice never felt like the way I do when I'm with you ever before."

"You chose to push me away Alex when I was trying so damn hard to be there for you."

His fingers are feather light against my skin igniting something that has been dead in me since he left. I can't take that chance again. I can't be hurt by him again. He guides his fingers down my face and jolts of electricity from them igniting the desire I once had for him. "Please Jasp, we can make this work this time. I promise I won't leave. We can work through what went wrong the first time and be happy again."

He leans forward and presses his lips on mine. Kissing me softly my lips are tingling as he nips my bottom lip. My d**k is hard and raring to go but I can't make that mistake again I just can't. He nips it again, sending shocks straight to my d**k. My mouth opens voluntarily with a gasp. He slides his tongue in and slides across my tongue making it tingle with anticipation. He pulls himself on top of me spreading my legs so our d***s lay on top of each other. He moans into my mouth and I'm gone completely and utterly gone. This was the way it was when we first started dating and it never fizzled out once we got into a full blown relationship. It was never boring, the sparks were always there until the day...

"I'm sorry Alex, I can.." I moaned out as he rubbed our d***s together.

"That's it, baby, I know you don't mean what you're saying. We belong together and this proves we do." he says rubbing his d**k on mine the friction is too much to bear. My eyes roll back and his lips kiss travel my neck, sucking and kissing it. I moaned loudly he always knew how to get me going, how to get an orgasm or three out of me and me coming all over him.

My d**k is painfully hard and leaking. His d**k is solid and the friction of our d***s together as he thrusts them together is stirring my orgasm to the brink he begins to kiss down my body little electric shocks scatter across my sensitive skin. He nips and sucks on my n*****s. I moan and curse because he knows how sensitive my n*****s are when I'm turned on. I can c*m at any moment. He moves down my body kissing down to my public bone his tongue swirls and licks just above my d**k I groan. I don't think I can take much more.

His mouth engulfs my d**k completely and I gasp at the feel of his mouth around the fn my d**k. I had forgotten how good this all felt then it all vanished when he stopped seeing me as a partner, a lover and someone who he could talk to and confide in. That hurt it hurt so much when he disappeared, leaving me to wonder what the hell I had done wrong. Now he's back and I don't know what to do with all these mixed feelings that I have for him.

He sucks me in and out like a f*****g prohis hand on my balls teasing them. I grab his hair and begin to rock in and out of his mouth. Damn, this feels so good but feeling good never lasts. People give up and leave and people get hurt and torn apart. I've seen it too many times not just with my own relationship with Alex but withAlaina and Elijah then with Alaina and Luca they're happy now, but it doesn't mean something bad will force them to separate like it once had with me and Alex.