The Beginning in the End

Postponed part one

"Hey Ash, come on" Tyler grabbed my hand and started running. "Ty slow down I'm going to trip!" a small giggle coming from my mouth as we raced up the stairs. "Don't be such a baby, you'll be OK we've done this before." He responded with sarcasm. We burst through the door on the roof top, but that wasn't what took me by surprise. On the floor was a blanket and a picnic basket. It was a warm summer night and the moon lit the scenery quiet nice for us. "I wanted to do something special, it's been about six months since, well you know" He struggled with his words shyly. Still holding my hand He led me to the blanket where we'd lie together under the sky and stars. "I know how much you've been talking about q distraction so I hope this is a good distraction. I wanted to tell you something I've been wanting to say for a while ash." Ty said with his award winning smile. It was a mix between goofy and so breath taking he'd have girls falling for him had this been a different situation and time.

"Ash, I love you, I had James help me set this up for tonight. Look I know it's still fresh between you and steph but you don't have to say anything now." his eyes never leaving mine searching mine for something in return. "Look Ash, I'm not like steph. I see a future with you. I WANT my future with you." his voice almost sounding desperate. I can't lie and say I didn't love him because I know I do. I can picture my life with him and future kids. Half of me was ecstatic to hear those words come out of his mouth while the other half was scared that he'd just use me and leave me like steph did.

I couldn't help myself my lips collided with his in a battle for complete dominance. As our mouths parted for our tongues to meet and dance with each other. "I love you ty, I want you too." my words came out breathless but sincere. A part of me wished that this would have been my first time. It would be with someone who absolutely cherished me. Someone who needed me just as bad as I needed them. I wish I could just live in this moment for a life time.

I sat in my room for thirty minutes replaying what just happened between steph and I. A part of me hated him for what happened a few months ago. The wound was still very fresh but a part of me wanted to trust him so I could have someone to lean on. I was scared to put my heart on my sleeve for someone who has hurt me for so long.

After what felt like hours of feeling sorry for myself I figured now is a great time to go up to the roof top check the progress. The walk up was slow, passing halls that I've made memories in, memories I was too afraid to revisit. The walk to the roof gave me time to put myself in a better mood for my brother and soon to be sister. I'm not going to lie when I say it didn't help a lot but it was certainly a step in the right direction.

As I get to the roof of the building I'm completely in awe when I open the door. The fake flowers I found all ranging in different colors and neatly decorated in an arch. The few lanterns we have are placed all around the roof, giving off the feel of a rustic wedding apocalypse vibe. If mom was here I know she'd love what's happening with her only son.

Honestly, a part of me does miss waking up to mom leaving us breakfast. The few times we would spend together would always be the best. My parents knew that we needed their comfort, and when they were around the never failed to give it to us. I was close with my dad, we had a lot of the same interests. While my brother loved horror movies, he and I loved playing card games. We would spend hours playing magic the gathering, and visiting local card shops. We even went as far as collecting cards from multiple games like pokemon down to dbz. Mom on the other hand, I would enjoy all the crafts we'd do. I'd even go as far as saying I'd enjoy the time she'd spend talking about work to me. The excitement that'd shine in her mossy green eyes.

That doesn't really matter now though, today I'm excited for James and my soon to be sister. "Hey Rachel come here for a second!" I shouted almost scaring the living day lights out of her. Now Rachel was 5'2, with light brown hair with natural blonde streaks in her hair, ocean blue eyes, and a slender athletic build. Now if you ask with her best feature is the guys would say her plump lips and the girls would say her eyes. She was a skiddish girl but who could honestly blame her? "Ash that was rude, didn't anyone tell you it's not nice to sneak up oh people!" she gave me a playful pout at the end. "I'm sorry, I just wanted to say thank you for filling in for me. I had a crazy start of the day." I smirked trying to contain chuckling from scaring her. "Rach I wanted to ask, do you want to hang out soon? I just, I am in desperate need of a girls night." I sighed scanning the city that used to be so lively with people. "Yes, definitely! I have somethings I need to tell you." she almost screamed with excitement. "I hate to cut this short though I really want to make sure everything is set. I only have an hour to make the final finishes before I have to go get ready so I'll see you after!" she smiled and then waved her goodbyes.

"Hey beautiful." Tyler said as he was leaning against my door frame. "I came to see if you wanted to go to the pool with me. I have some free time before I have to get ready and you're the person I wanna spend it with." he said pulling me into a hug. "Can we take a rain check on the pool? Let's just go up to the roof I'm feeling kind of trapped here again." I said pouting. "Of course anything you want." he gave me a dazzling smile that made my chest constrict.

We had been sitting on the roof for all of ten minutes with we saw it. *Boom* *Boom* two explosions not too far off in the distance. "Ash go check on Carter for me ok? I'm sure now they're going to want to send us out to see what happened over there." ty almost yelled with anxiety. "Yeah of course we'll be waiting for you." I gave him a quick peck on the lips before we both ran down from the roof.

I walked down the many flight of stairs to my room. I honestly hate when the memories fill my mind at the worst possible times. After my encounter with steph I've been feeling really stressed out. Things haven't been the best for me as I have no one to really talk to around here except for James and Rachel. I don't want to bother them with it right now though, as James is probably getting ready and we'll Rachel is putting the finishing touches to her transformed roof top.

I lean my head against the door with a long sigh I let myself rest there for a moment. I just wish things were as simple as they used to be. I realize now how much I took things for granted. If I could get the chance to go back I wouldn't make the same mistakes I'd actually love dad's bad cooking and mom's terrible jokes. With a heavy burden in my heart I opened the door. At first everything seemed to be exactly where I left it I failed to noticed the envelope on my pillow.

Upon first inspection nothing seemed to be standing out to me about this. Sure it's weird that someone wants to leave me love letters when I'm gone but I have a good feeling I know who it was. Boy was I wrong about the contents though. There was no writing on this envelope just a simple 'open'.

With slight clammy hands I opened the letter that was left for me. 'This is a warning Ash, don't go out there tonight it's a set up if you do make sure you have made your peace.' My heart hammering in my chest and my eyes watering. What do I do?