The Beginning in the End

The tale of the twins

"Okay I'm just going to say it." I mumbled to myself as I looked in the mirror. "Guys, I'm leaving after graduation it's not up for discussion." I say to myself once again. 'Nope, can't do this not right now at least." I groan to myself as I run a hand through my hair. I practice with myself a few more times trying to find the right way to tell them I'm not staying here any longer than I need to. I truly hate this place with every once of me.

*James' pov*

I should trust Ash, she's not one to pull stunts to get attention, but I need this to be done not just for me. Ash and I have always been different, she's not as level headed, she has no real end game. Ash has always kind of gotten us into trouble she has a good heart but it's questionable now. I wish things were different, I'd be able to go to college, actually date like a real person. I would even go to prom if I could take this all back. Life is cruel though, I have to raise a daughter in this world. She'll never get to experience all the things I did, but hopefully that'll change soon.

The people going out on today's scouting trip will be doing two jobs. The first one will keep ash busy, the truth would probably hurt her. The second one will be looking for a way out of here. I was told that there was a weak point in the wall the surrounds the city. When the time comes Renee, the baby, and I will make our escape. I can't tell ash because she'd try to get everyone out, I can't afford to run into shufflers, we'd surely lose people. This environment is totally unforgiving, at any moment you can set off old b**by traps that past survivors set.

"Turn around for me." I said huskily to Rachel. She wasn't Renee but Renee didn't need to know, I needed a release something she wouldn't help me with. I bent her over the bed and undid my pants. "Remember, don't scream." I whispered as I aligned myself into her entrance. With full force I rammed myself deep inside here, while I held her hips in place. "Oh James, harder, please." she moaned into the pillow. I'd hate to admit it but she is a better f*ck than Renee, I would never love Rachel like I did Renee. Her beg didn't go unanswered I slid almost all the way out leaving just the head at the entrance. I grabbed hold of her ponytail before once again stretching her tight p*ssy out. It went on like this for a while before I made her get on her knees and swallow my load. "Same time next week?" she asked as she quickly put her pants back on. "No, I'll let you know, you should date Drew. I don't need people to get suspicious of us now." I mumbled as I grabbed a towel and went into the shower.

I feel like scum, but Rachel had always allowed me to release. I also know the baby that's suppose to be mine isn't, our timeline doesn't add up. I would never ask Renee who the baby belonged to, I still love her even if the truth isn't what it seems. Since this happened I haven't been the same, I trust that steph will keep ash safe especially after our last talk.

"Steph, you're going to watch her for me or everyone will know exactly what you did." I shoved him up against the wall. "If I catch any type of wind that you're helping her stall out my scouts you'll be shuffler understood?" Anger radiating from me, it even scared me a bit. "Or what James? Maybe Renee will be my next target." he smirked at me, the least bit affected by my threat. "I doubt she tastes as good as your sister though. I wouldn't mind finding out." he freed himself from my hold, now showing a full grin. "Be careful James, you're not as tough as you think." he said as he brushed passed me.

Steph, I hated him but I respected what he is. At first, I didn't want him to date ash, he wasn't good for her. She'd probably end up hurt and I'd have to hear about it when it happened. Now, however, he's the only person I trust to watch over her while I'm gone. I hired him to follow ash out with the scouts this time. He wouldn't be able to keep his hands off her, that's what I was counting on.

Before you think it, no, I would never intentionally hurt my sister. Though I do want to feel like my own person and her being around doesn't let me do that. She reminds me too much of the past, that doesn't mean that I wouldn't protect her at all costs. It just hurts way too much to think about the past. We didn't hear about mom, or dad. The only news that Cuevas shared with us was that the lab was the first place to go down. As far as the were able to tell no one lived. That day I saw ash break, but I also saw her be tough for me. I'm not person but there is one thing that I try to do best, I try to be the brother that Ash deserves in all this.

After being lost in thought I stepped into the shower. I let the cold water wash away my sins, after all tonight I'm suppose to be a married man with a happy family. I took my time washing my body, letting my hands glide down every muscle that I have. The sensual self massage was exactly what I needed right now to take my mind off of things, more like situations. I was thankful that this shower was stocked with men shampoo, I made quick work of rubbing the shampoo into my scalp. I got out of the shower feeling better than ever, that is until I looked in the mirror. The bags under my eyes were prominent, making me look older than I am. My hair could definitely use a cut, I hated the shaggy look, next time I meet with rach I'll have her cut my hair.

I walked out of the bathroom where I was startled almost half to death. "Hey babe, I came to check up on you." Renee all but cooed at me with a smile. I leaned down and gave her a quick peck on the lips. "Hey Jay, maybe we should cancel tonight? I just feel uneasy." she whispered, the fear evident in her eyes. I softly grabbed her face "I'll never let anything happen to you guys, you're my world." I gave her a kiss this time with desperation as I pulled her into a hug.

Maybe I'm in over my head with all this, but can I actually protect my family if I needed to? Now I was worried, we have no real weapons here, and the people who do have the good stuff is almost out of ammo. Please, I hope I can keep my family safe in all this.