The Beginning in the End

Back to the Past

"Hey do you ever think about how sudden things can change?" "Sometimes but in what sense?" He replied back while his head is buried in the fridge. "Like what if we're not here tomorrow, or the house burns down. We'll be wiped from existence as we know it." I mumbled lost in thought. "That's heavy sis, what's bothering you?" "it's just a gut feeling nothing to worry about." I shrugged and tossed myself into the sofa.

*Memory from ash*

Life was good in this moment. We were about to all sit down and watch a movie, with the added bonus of pizza of course. I look forward to when it's just James and I, it's comforting to have time with your sibling. He doesn't think I know, he's planning to leave after high school, I can't blame him for it. I'm leaving too, just not where he's going.

James has never been much of a scholar so it would make sense that he's leaving to work somewhere else. I, on the other hand, am going east for school M.I.T has always been the place I want to go to. Unlike Jay, I don't spend time talking to myself about my plans, I keep them to myself. I know my mom won't be happy with us leaving, but we hate it here.

Small towns have perks, sure, I just hate the fact that everyone here has to know your business. As soon as something happens it spreads like wildfire. For instance, Stacy has always tried to keep her proactive side from her parents. Well, let's just say she made the wrong guy made and by the next morning everyone had a video of what they did together.

"James if you don't hurry I'm going to start the movie" I said nonchantly. That's all it takes to get his attention because he plops down right next to me. With a cheeky grin he whispers "I found the hidden stash." I snatched the bag and opened it. "Dude no way. This is all the good stuff!" I almost shouted excited. Mom and dad always hid the best snacks from us, they thought they were slick like that. "Ok let's start the movie, the pizza guy will be here soon too." he said adjusting himself to be comfortable. "Don't have to tell me twice." I chuckled as I turned the TV on and pressed play.

We stayed like this almost all night, James was the first to pass out. I didn't stay up much longer there was no reason to my partner in crime was out for the count. I know a deep part of me will feel lonely when we seperate, but I think we both want to be our own person. I just can't shake this feeling, hopefully I'll feel better soon.