Chapter 3
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I kept hearing ringtone as I woke up early in the morning. As I check my phone it was only 5 am in the morning.I was groggy but I have to see who is calling. Maybe it was a client so I have to get up and answer it.
Hello, Good morning this is Rei. How may I help you? as I answer it without seeing the caller ID.
Rei, Rei where are you? said in the other line.
Oh, its you. Im in the house sleeping. Why?
Whose house? I heard from your sister that you move out. Where the hell did you rent?
Why? and why are you pissed off, I asked
Im just concern. He said in a low voice almost whispering.
You don't have any right over me now. About the baby don't worry, I will let you play the role of a father but you have no whatsoever say about whether I move out of our house or something.But for your piece of mind and I don't wanna ruin my day. Im just near my mothers house. And my landlady is nice so you don't have to worry about anything. I told him
When are you going for check ups. Tell me I want to be there. he asked.
I actually set an appointment but you don't have to be there. I know your busy and all.
Thats ok, I want to be there with you and the baby.
As he said that I don't know how to feel. i want to hope that hell be there but I don't want to hope for nothing. I already done that during our relationship. So I don't wanna hope for the things he is saying.
I just told him okay then hung up the phone. Im still sleepy and my bed is pulling me to sleep some more so I walk to it and get into it.
I didnt heard Leanne come home, I was deep into slumber that I woke up almost 9 am in the morning. I wash my face and did my routine and headed to the kitchen for my breakfast. As I was seating eating my fill for the morning, Im thinking about Rence and our conversation a while ago. I know that I have still have feeling for him but sometimes feelings are not the only thing that makes you stay in a relationship. He made me feel that Im not good enough by ignoring me. He was always saying that he was busy with work but I now that its just excuses. There are times that he will not chat or text me in a day but you will see in his social media that he was with friends , drinking. Sometimes I even think that there are other woman beside me.
I know it was not healthy thinking about this and it will only make me stress out but sometimes Im wondering. Wondering if I am really not good enough for him thats why he was always ignoring and abandoning me.
Ohhh Erase erase... I told myself. I already told myself that nothing will come out of it thinking negative things. I have to keep forward. If ever that Rence will push through about coming back to him, he have to work really really hard for it.
I went out after I wash the dishes. Leanne put some money on top of the refrigerator and some notes at the table. It was for the food for lunch. she told me to choose and cook for she will sleep and in the evening she will cook as a compromise. As I went to the market I saw a very sticky rice kakanin as we call it. Im not actually found of eating but for some reason Im salivating. Its like the sticky rice is calling for me and telling me , eat me ... eat me. ahahhahah. It feels Im crazy just thinking of it. So this what they call cravings. I went to the seller and order 5 set. just thinking about it makes me happy.I bought a lot of ingredient that I thought I will be needing. And things that I will be needing in the few days. I also bought stocks for tomorrow so I wont need to go out and buy it.
After lunch my mother chatted me , asking if I was alright. It seems my brother is pissed at me leaving the house now that Im making money. I shrug it off, Im done caring about people, family or not I wont care anymore and just live my life. Im already 31 yrs old, and they only want me in the house because Im the only one who was preparing foods. Im like a slave preparing their meals because I don't make enough. Wherein reality, even i make enough they will still make me prepare it. When I was still living with them they are nagging because I don't make enough money. Now that I move out of the house they are still angry because they don't have anyone to boss around. Oh well... as I have said I don't care anymore. The only thing that will concern me is if it involves my mother.
I went back to my room after washing the dishes. Leanne is still sleeping and I don't plan on waking her. I don't know her routine and she didn't say so in the notes. I started my freelance job. This job gave me lot. At first it was so hard on getting a client I almost gave up Until one day, someone hired me for background removal. He was satisfied with my work thats why he gave me a five star. after that Clients keep on coming, actually some of it are referral from my fist client. Then I started making proposal in making banner or poster for formal or business events. my other clients, the one referred by my other clients in background removal. She was satisfied with my work and gave me a good reviews. After that Im making almost a thousand for just doing freelance jobs. And now my previous client message me, proposing to work with him as an official maker in banner, poster events and many more. He is also asking me to learned making videos for introductory campaign so that they will not hire someone else for the job anymore. I was actually glad about it but I told him that there will be days that I cant push myself hard because Im already pregnant. He congratulated me and told me its okay. He told me that I will have benefits in partnership with him. And bonuses. He also said that he was okay about me accepting other sideline as long as it will not affect or projects which was a very god deal for me. So I accepted it. Now I know that I will really had enough money to save for my delivery and recuperation.
writer's note:
Please bear with me as join the journey of rei with her motherhood. comment and reconstructed criticism will help me a lot. Thanks
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