Steven POV
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We don't make it to the room
We crash on the couch , as I continue to kiss her
Her legs trapped around my waist
I know , this is it
Either I have s*x with her now
Or , I give my brother his latter choice
"Penelope ?"
I break our kiss , as I try to catch in our breathe
It's just not her
It's even me
Like ,do I want to ?
I guess so
I want to feel this too
With someone other than her
I want to do this to myself ,to tell myself that I can be okay
Fine
Alone
But only if Penelope wants it too
I feel like this is my first time too
Like how many people I have had s*x with till now?
One
Just now women , In my entire life
A women who i loved so deep
Who was my first ,and who I wished was my last
But now , taking this step isn't any
