While we are on the way to the hospital for the appointment my mom started blabbering on about seeing my father standing on the side of the road, telling me to pull over so that he could get in the car. While arguing with my mom she suddenly grabbed the wheel making us swerve up and down the street to the point that the car flipped over three time causing the car to land on the roof in a ditch. When I opened my eyes, I noticed that my mom wasn't moving while I was screaming for her, I believe that it may have caused several injuries to me, and my mom thank God no one else was on the road or injury in her fit of delusions.
We both ended up in the hospital me with a broken arm, twisted ankle, and a minor concussion. I heard as I listened to the doctor talking to the nurse. When I finally opened my eyes, I asked how my mother was doing.
My mother on the other hand had several broken bones and a very bad head injury that they had to put her in a medically induced coma for fear of swelling on the brain. I spent a total of two weeks in the hospital. I was finally released from the hospital after getting a clear bill of health, but with the car being completely totaled I ended up calling Kol to come and get me from the hospital. Thinking back now I should have tried harder to get her some help after the death of my father, because I did start to notice small changes in her, I could have caught it before it had gotten too bad. Well, that is in the past now I will do much better when she is released from the hospital. I was knocked out of my thoughts when I heard Kol call my name, looking over at him he continued.
“Hey Heaven, how are you feeling”? Kol asked.
“It could be worse Kol but with the medication they gave me I don't really feel too much pain just discomfort”, I answered honestly.
“Heaven you both gave us all a major scare, we thought we lost you both”, He said looking so serious.
“Well, I just want to say thank you. I heard you guys came and seen me and my mom while we were in the hospital and for bringing me home. I really don't know what I am going to do now, especially with my mother”, I said while holding back tears.
“Just so you know we are here for you whenever you need us someone will always be here to help you guys with anything that you all need. Oh, and Heaven you may not want to hear this right now but happy birthday”, he said while looking up at the road.
I just looked at him in shock I forgot today was my birthday with all the s**t that has been going on. “Thank you Kol”, I said with a small smile. I turned 17 on a day that should had been filled with fun and party’s I was spending it laid up at home all casted up. Well lucky f*****g me.
Four months later my mother was finally released from the hospital, but she ended up being confined to a wheelchair, so I spent a better part of six months taking care of my mother. The twins would come and help me out with her and fill me in on all the gossip that has been going on around the school and town. That was probably the highlight of my day. I spent most of my time making sure that my mother was comfortable by cooking, feeding, and bathing her, while maintaining the housework and bills. I should have known that it was coming I was slowly seeing the life drift from her eyes as time went on. She had completely stopped talking a couple days after I brought her home from the hospital, I don't think that she wanted to live another day in this world without my father.
Just when I thought that things were starting to calm down, I was thinking about going back to finish school, then things got even worse in the end, my mom started getting really sick. She had stopped eating and the in-home nurse that Kol had hired to help me care for my mother was not sure if she would make it till the end of the month. Soon after I was indeed left all alone, she ended up passing away from what I could only imagine was that of a broken heart, I was 17.
Losing one parent is hard but losing both of your parents within two years can do a lot of serious damage to a teenager, here I was barely holding it together, just for life to get even harder.
After the death of my mother, that was when the dam in my mind finally broke completely, I was a mess. I didn’t know what I was going to do now, I was feeling all alone. Both of my parents gone I didn’t know where I was going to go from here. I had really wanted to go back to school to at least graduate but in reality, I didn’t think that I would be focused enough to actually learn anything. A couple of days after they came and got my mother’s body the twins mother came to see if I needed help with anything. She had been coming by every so often when my mom was sleep and would just stare at her for hours it was weird to me, but I just shook the thought out of mind.
“I’m not really sure what I need to do to be honest everything seems so overwhelming at the current moment”, I said to her while looking at a family photo that we had taken on my 15th birthday.
“Heaven honey you know that we are all here for you whenever you need us to be all you have to is let us know what you need”, she said.
“Yes, I know it just right I think I just need some time to get my mind right I have to get things situated for the funeral, then I have to find the paperwork about the house, I have to find a job so that I can maintain the house. Oh my god what the hell am I going to do I am just 17 this is too much”, I cried out. “This is just too much”.
It was on that day sitting in my living room, I gained the knowledge that Mr. and Mrs. Hightower were in fact my aunt and uncle which was a shock to me but more to the twins, since we had been best friends since the 5th grade. When I heard that bit of information, I was to say the least pissed off not really knowing the full story of why her and my mother had not been close. But where was she when we really needed her, when my mom was going through all the grief, the mental breakdowns, the drinking where the hell was her family then. Now all of a sudden, I have an instant family that I have been around almost my whole life. At that moment I just walked out of the house without another word leaving her sitting on the couch alone as I went for a walk in the forest that was behind our house.
The forest had become a place that I would come just to think and get away from all the pressures of the world. A place where I could come and get myself back centered before I had to face yet another problem in my life. Finding my perfect spot, I sat under a large oak tree and just cried and cussed. Why me I thought. Why must I go through all this in such a short period of time.
There has got to be someone up in the heavens that thinks that this is funny, but I disagree this is not funny at all. After a couple of hours of crying, cussing, and blaming other people for what has happened to me I headed back to the house that I once shared with my parents.