Agatha
Nikolai changed on the plane and I don't know how to feel about it.
His usual heavy, dark aura began to dissipate in the midst of my depressive attack, and suddenly there were colors of compassion and empathy, plus the attraction he always feels when he sees me.
None of that is exactly bad. In fact... it made me feel something good, too. I think it's sweet that he's still doing this even though he's not being pushed by guilt anymore. He's just doing it because he's my friend.
I've had friends before, but their feelings for me were never like that. Real. Benny, for example, felt grateful to me because he thought me giving him free drugs all the time was a sign of a good friendship. And Erika felt such repressed lust for me that it kept her from thinking about anything else when I
