Likaonia

XVII.Chapter I Part I Act Xi Jovan

When I woke up,

the new one was already with us.

We were in ... Where are we actually?

Middle of the forest? the jungle? Some

wilderness?

I have no head for this. This silence is going to kill me.

Fisk is still with me.

The rest are definitely looking for Jonovan.

I know I should take care of this too.

But this Darkness ...

I have bad feelings. I have no strength.

What kind of commander am I?

I can't even lead?

Fisk silently looks at me worried.

I feel like something is not right.

I don't usually act like this.

However, I do not have the strength to explain it to him.

I don't want to worry him more.

I don't know exactly what I'm feeling either.

Is it a threat from outside?

Is inside.

this nothingness does not help.

I am blabbering again.

You are propably confused.

How is that easiest to explain?

I don't even know if I should talk about it.

I looked out the window.

My family planet is wild.

She was actually ...

Maybe that's why I do it?

Because I can see what humanity is doing.

And I know where it leads

" Are you thinking about home again?" - Said worried FISK, breaking me out of my thoughts

"You can always read my mind huh?"- I replied turning to

him.

"I've known you long enough to recognize what you are thinking,"-he replied in a calm tone.

"You know me so long and you know so little about me"-I replied lowering my head.

" I know enought". - He replied raising my head with his hand -" I love you and that's enough."

"I'm just a worry and a problem to you. How can you love someone like that?" - I replied turning my head.

" How can you say that?

"

- He replied completely

surprised by my

statement.

" I say what I think.

From the beginning,

I only cause you problems "

-I answered.-"

I feel powerlessness

growing. And the pain.

How can you be happy with someone you have to constantly watch over

and console?"-

I continue, tears welling up in my eyes. - "

I took you on a journey

around the world and

I

can't even finish

collecting members

without breaking up."

- I've said holding

back mytears with.

I dare not even look

at him. I'm ashamed.

- "What kind of

commander I am,

what kind of partner

am I? The council

has to do my job and

you have to babysit

me." - Anger and

irritation are growing

in me. He no longer

controls himself.

-" I was supposed to

replace your father for

the hell!"

"

"I love you! "-

He interrupts my

speech with a scream.

- "You're perfect!

You're

mine!" - He screams

in tears.

Great. Another hurt by

me. Can I do

something right?

" Does that mean

something to you?" -

FISK asked, staring

at

me -"

I am here for you. I

can not live without you. This Organization is our

child. Our dreams are plans."

" Yes. What am I doing

? - I ask, still unable to

meet his eyes-"

I'm almost lying on

top of you in the limo

while the rest are

actually doing what

they should."

Still standing up

without meeting

his eyes, ignoring

his attempts to

avert my face and

hold me by him.

I'm already enough of their burden.

He doesn't want to

be yours anymore.

I step aside, sitting

down so as not to look at him.

Something is

breaking inside me.

But I only

worry about him ...

And this emptiness

"I did not expect that.

I will not impose myself. I can see that I am

unnecessary.

I'll take care of my duty next time."

How could I be so

stupid? How could

I that helping me and

being close hurt him?

How could

I not see me just hurt

him?

Husk returned alone

"Hello, young.

Where's the rest?"

- I asked,

opening the window.

"They are still looking "

- he replied

panting -

"I have no more

strength.

In addition, your last

behavior

did not give me peace" -

He said looking at

me with concern -

"Why are you sitting

here

and not with Fisk?"

"Disagreement," -

I replied. I felt worse and worse.

First FISK, now young.

"You've had such

differences many

times but never "

- He said, looking in

Fisk's direction-

" What's going on?"

"Enough of people are

worried about me

already,"

-I replied, turning my

head away and

ignoring his feelings. -

"Take care of the Wolf.

I need someone to

bring him into this world."

" How could I do that

seeing ..."

" And how do you

want to help me?"

- I paused before it

took off and squeezed

my guilt even further

- "How does such a

young and

inexperienced person

want to help me?

You can barely tie

your shoes, let alone

heart things.

How do you want to

help me? When I

say do something, do

it!"

" I'm worried about you."

- He said completely

rejected by my

outburst - "

But if you have to

behave like that, be

like that."

.

He got in the car and

sat away from me.

You can't possibly be a

colder, insensitive

egotist.

Tommy showed up not

long after him

" So what I feared

happened" - he said,

looking at me -

" You burst and explode

what?"

" I do not know what

you mean perfect

mister "-

I replied irritated.

" You sit away from

Fisk even though

you are always

so sweet that

I feel like vomiting.

"-

He replied ignoring my

tone.

" So I no longer have

the right to even fart

without him?" - I replied.

I knew what he meant.

But the crust kept

growing.

"For this Husky

came back because

he wanted to talk to

you and he is sitting

away from you.

"-

He continued ignoring my lunges.

" He's only a child "

- I said on a

detachable -

"Is easily nervous and

has a bad reading of

the surroundings.

"Dude ..."

" Give it up. "- I cut him

off. - "Sit down, turn on

your tablet and stop pretending I care."

He sat down.

Away from me.

He stared at the void.

I didn't have to.

A private void of my

own grew within me.

Tina was next

" I wanted to talk to you."- She said opening her

medical bag.

" So you think I'm sick? "- I've Said.

"I just wants to be sure,"- she said calmly as she continued

emptying the bag

" Aren't you scared?

" - I asked and she looked surprised at me

"What,"- she asked uncertainly

" I am an unstable alien that cannot be counted on "- I replied, strangely amused - "For this I can be hory for a foreign, contagious incurable disease."

"Don't be ridiculous," -she replied

" You all think something wrong with me" - I replied with growing amusement - "But who told you that

you are able to

help me? You

would take orders instead of

pretending to be concerned!

This is not

what you are

here for!"

I was ignoring her from now on.

I don't know what

she did after that.

Whether when and where she sat down.

I had it somewhere.

If only I knew ...

Sanna showed up with

Lars.

" Oh, I see that the

lovebirds have finally

decided

to appear."-

I replied tired and

irritated. The headache

was getting

worse. -"

Before you start telling

me the morals,

remember who

is who.

And thanks to who you

are in life where you

are.

I may be unstable

and useless, but it's

too

late

to back out. So instead of

taking care of me,

take care

of economics and

shipping. I have huge

plans and

you will arrange them

for me.

Now sit down and

be

quiet!"

Chiang and Abbéus

brought jovan.

.

The headache was

maximal.

I passed out ...

And I could have

had help ...

I could have had

support ...

I could open up ...

But it was too late ...

The darkness has

already triumphed ...

I opened its gates

and

placed it on the

throne ...

The rest is ...

suffering ...

Lonlines will make you strong

Will let you reap what you sow

Emptines will fill your power

All weak ones will be devouer

Pain will become your weapon

You will become my

beacon

You just need to let me out.

I will carve your victory route.

Hear me

Become me

Free me

Surender to me

Your life will become much better

I will be your setter

Lets setle with the darknes within

Its time to take them out for a spin

I am the answer

I am the power

I am the reason

Iam the payment for their treason

If you need me just call me

All you need to do is let me devour thee.