My life as an LGBT+ member

Lovers in the dining hall

Xavier’s POV***

Joe and I turn to look at him as he continuous dirty words at us. I call Laurent Mr.Know it all

Because he likes boasting about his high grades in every test, he writes.

I can’t argue much to that cause I know he’s good but not the best tho.

Laurent, look at us with a disgusted look on his face as a smirk hang on his lips

We both stand on our feet.He leans closer to us.

“HI LOVERS.” he says mockingly.

“g**y bastards you guys disgust me” he spits on our feet.

Everyone turn look at us shocked at the mention of g**y bastards. most of them look so disgusted because they practically hated both of us. some of them had their suspicions about our sexuality but couldn’t care less because they had a lot on their plates.

After a few moments of keeping quiet, I finally get some courage to speak my mind as people in the dining are booing us and that to throw their rice on us.

Enough! shut up y’all! I yelp. The dining hall is in silence as they wait for me to start speaking.

I took a deep breath and say.

Joe and I indeed true Lovers! I snap adding emphasis on the word lovers. I continue to lie and say him and I have been doing an online dating since ninth grade and coming to this school was one of our first plans to meet up as we live in different towns.

But it seems like Joe didn’t take this well as he looked at me with hurt in his eyes. He tried grabbing him by the hand, but he flinches and shove it off him.

Before things could get worse, he stormed off the dining running back to the hostel living is plate behind.

I grab my plate in his own and trash the remaining food then run after him to have a talk with him and apologize as I knew I had upset him by lying to everyone about our relationship. I put the plates down the floor as I find my best friend sobbing while his face is buried in a pillow. I move close and sit beside him on the bed to talk to him, but stay quiet as I realize what I’ve just done wasn’t right.

Not to be rude, Joe is book worm who’s focused on his studies as he wants to study nursing when he complete his secondary school.

He came to this school on a scholarship, so he didn’t want anything messed up.

He is so secretive about his sexuality to others apart from me, and he made me pinky, swear never to mention a thing to anyone about his personal life.

I went back on my pinky promise and he’s now mad at me for betraying him after promising not to. Thoughts flood my head and I start crying.

He taps my shoulder and says

“Xavier?” Hmmm “ what’s wrong and why are you crying?” I look at him dumbfounded, but managed to get some words out of my lying mouth.

I’m sorry, bro. I didn’t mean to say what I said back there in the dining I really am so-

“ please stop”

He cut me before I could finish my sentence.

“ I’m not mad at you for saying what you said”

But I broke my pinky promise to you, I say timidly as a few tears run down my cheeks.

He pulls me into a hug to calm me down reassure me that he’s not mad at me. Why are you not mad at me though? I ask.

“ well I’m mad at myself for not having the courage to stand up for myself and face my fears. I’m a coward.”

No, please don’t call yourself that.

You’re the most brave boy I’ve ever come across at this school need less to in my entire life.

I say to him, pulling away from the hug and forcing a smile.

All you need is confidence and self-love.

I snap and turn serious

Love the person you are and see the best within you. You can’t continue living in a nutshell for the rest of your life.

Bro, you’re gotta come out of it someday and shine brightly!

I squeal.

Well on the other hand, I’ve never been too comfortable with my own thin body and the dark skin, especially.

I had nothing to do about my dark skin tone, but for my body, I kept it that way for a reason because I was a lot into modeling since I was in kindergarten.

So I always remind myself of that.