Book of songs

songs 17-20

“You Said” ~17

You said we were friends.

Then I found out you lied.

Why would you tell me something that’s a lie?

Why would you lie to me?

I thought that we could be honest with each other.

Why didn’t you tell me the truth?

Was it just to hurt me?

Or was there some other reason?

I don’t understand why you would do this to me.

Would you tell me the truth or would you keep lying to me?

I wish we could undo everything.

I wish I could forget who I am and forget everyone else, but no matter how much I wish it will never come true.

I know we’ve already hurt each other.

We’ve tried to forgive and forget.

It didn’t work but that’s ok because I still have friends that care about me.

Even if you don’t that’s ok because I don’t care about you either.

No matter what I thought back then it doesn’t help our situation.

I would’ve never thought that you would lie to me like that.

You had me thinking that we were friends the whole time we weren’t.

I never expected this to happen to us.

Now that the damage is done it’s something that can’t be fixed so easily.

I wish it could be fixed but it can’t no matter what.

It’s like we were never friends.

After this happened my heart turned icy.

My mind won’t forget you.

I cry for hours at night.

I’m hoping and praying that things will turn out right for us.

Until then I wish you luck.

I want you to be happy.

I never wanted you to be stolen away from me as a friend.

Now you don’t want anything to do with me.

I really don’t care anymore because I have guys that are my friends.

I’m moving on over you.

What we used to have can no longer be fixed.

How could you do this to me.

I never ever wanted this to happen to us, but it’s too late.

I tried asking you.

I tried talking to you.

It didn’t work now goodbye forever.

“If I could change fate” ~ 18

If I could change fate.

I would go back and stop you from making the mistakes that you did and tell you that everything is alright.

I would hug you.

Tell you that everything that has happened is not your fault.

Then I would come back to the present day.

Find you take care of you.

I would help you out.

If only you would talk to me.

We could patch things up.

Become friends again.

I believe in second chances but the more you don’t the more I feel hurt.

You know I want to help you but all you want to do is hurt me.

If only you would talk to me.

I would do everything in my power to help you.

All you have to do is take that one.

Come to me and talk to me.

I’m always here.

I’m always ready to listen to your need of help.

No matter what it takes me.

The more you avoid me the more it’s gonna hurt us.

Why won’t you help me help you.

You know you can trust me.

Apparently you don’t.

I’m tired of feeling that you don’t need me in your life.

I’m trying to search for an answer of why you’re doing this to me.

I hope you understand how much our friendship meant to me.

I don’t think you did.

If you did you wouldn’t have listened to my cousin.

You would have listened to me.

No you didn’t want to listen to me.

If you would talk to me I would tell you that she has done this to me before.

She’ll keep on doing this to me as long as we keep socializing with her.

If we stop socializing with her she’ll stop doing this.

I can forgive and forget.

I’m not jealous of her.

I just want you back as my friend.

I want you to talk to me.

“Baby come back to me” ~ 19

Baby come back to me.

I need you in my life.

Baby come back to me.

You know I need you.

You know that I want you.

You know a lot of things about me.

You know I’m sorry for everything I’ve done.

You know I didn’t mean the things I said.

That’s why I’m saying this now.

Baby come back to me now because I need you with me.

Why can’t you see that it’s you that I need.

All I wish for is you to come back to me.

I wish you knew how much I need you by my side.

I wish you would know but I don’t think you do because if you did you wouldn’t have left me.

You wouldn’t have walked out that door.

You wouldn’t have said sorry baby it’s goodbye now.

It’s too late.

I tried to get you back but I couldn’t.

I tried my hardest.

Now that you’re gone all I can think about is you.

I miss you.

All I’m saying is come back to me.

Please just come back.

I need you.

I wish you have never left.

If only we didn’t have that argument.

If only we didn’t have that fight.

If only we didn’t split up.

You would still be here with me.

You wouldn’t be with that other girl.

Baby you don’t get it but when you left you took part of me with you.

When you took part of my heart.

When you left you took half of our memories with you.

We had a lot of plans together.

We planned to get married.

We planned to have kids.

It’s too late because you’re gone.

I’m not mad.

I’m not upset.

I’m just disappointed at you.

If you ever want to come back to me.

I’ll welcome you with warm arms.

Let me just say this I never thought that you would do this to me.

I can’t believe you would hurt me just to be with that other girl.

Let me tell you that she’s no good for you because I saw her with some boy that wasn’t you.

If I told you.

You wouldn’t believe me at all.

You would tell me that I’m lying.

You would find some way to make yourself believe that I’m lying but if you look me in the eye you would know.

“Someday” ~20

I want us to meet one day.

I want us to be friends.

I don’t mind if I have to wait.

It may be awhile but I pray the day we meet won’t be that far away.

I pray it won’t be that long but just think the more we wait the sooner that day will get here.

For now I will wait and plan that day.

I will wait and wait.

I promise you I will meet you one day.

Our first impressions of each other will be different but til then I will push myself through life like I always do.

When we meet we will have a great time.

Time passes by fast so we will meet soon.

All I want is to see you again after so many years.

I cry myself to sleep thinking that you hate me.

Oh how I miss you.

I know that you don’t like me.

I wish I knew why.

We were childhood friends so tell me this.

Was our friendship just a lie from the beginning or was it that you became my friend because our mothers are?

I don’t like the fact that you lied to me because that hurt me more than you know.

I will never tell you because I know you don’t care.

You don’t even try to spare my feelings but I know that in time all of that will change.

At least I hope and pray that it will.

I hope my prayers come true.

So far they haven’t been answered.

I won’t give up hope as long as I continue to pray and have hope.

I know they will be answered.

I will keep waiting for the day.

When we will meet again.

I want to be your friend again.

Why don’t you understand that’s all I ever wanted from you.

I know that we argued a lot and I want to apologize for that but I don’t think that you’ll forgive me.

I’m trying my hardest to forget everything but it’s not working.

I cry at night thinking that we won’t be able to be friends again.

Oh how I wish things weren’t this difficult.

Oh how I wish things could be easier for me but they aren’t.

Why can’t life be easier.

I wish it was but it’s not.

All I do is force a smile for everyone and play the go happy girl role.

Even though it’s hard but I push through life.

Oh why must I lie about the way I feel.

Sometimes I feel like I’m living a lie.

That’s how much I can’t believe this happened.

That is how much I wish it was just a dream.

It’s not a dream it’s reality.

This is just my reality.

Even though it hurts.

Even though it’s hard.

I will push through life.