Cairn
Cynthia chose the worst timing to come into the kitchen area, by her reaction she must have heard most if not all of it, I felt like s.hit, I did not want to upset her, I had not even meant any of it I was just doing what I had always done, acting like I cared for no one, admitting my feelings for Marisoll was hard enough let alone admitting I cared for Cynthia too.
I did not know how much I cared for Cynthia, but it was enough that I felt that irritating guilt, I could not just leave her like that, it pained me to hear her sob so hard as if I had broken her heart.
Being affectionate or even giving a s.hit was difficult for me, I was used to caring for no one and nothing, so sighing I got up and growled under my breath feeling angry and unsure as to why, old habits? Who knew, but
