The Jewel That Stole The CEOs Heart

I don't deserve her 🥲

Chapter 6

I don't deserve her

Amanda's POV

I felt a mocking gaze on me when i looked up to she Jessie wiggling her brows

"What?" I asked her.

"You couldn't help it really could you?; You called him hot, and you've been smiling like a kid that got a candy." She said, and I couldn't reply her as I felt my cheeks going red for getting caught, she was totally going to make a big deal out of it, she always does.

"I knew it Amy, you really like him don't you I can already guess the headlines. Cold Beautiful PA Amanda Gray has the hots for her handsome boss Claudio Morelli." She said using her hand as a microphone while posing as a newscaster.

"Don't say that Jessie, remember I'm sick don't let me start hallucinating about him being the LOML." I said trying to get her to stop talking about it.

“Come on Amy, he's cute yeah, but you called him hot that means something. She insisted then paused calculatively before turning to point an accusing finger at me.

"And that means you never stopped crushing on him, no young lady you freaking told me you didn't feel anything for him and I believed you, you are keeping things from me next you will tell me you guys are getting married next year, so now if you do not want me to disown you tell me everything that has happened between the two of you." she finished.

"Okay, I have a little bit of a tinie tiny crush on him." I said gesticulating on the tinie with my fingers "So please can you stop crucifying me."

“I'm not crucifying you babe, I just believe he cares too, I mean the look on his face when he came to the apartment was priceless, I just wish a guy could do that for me, hell he was worried though he hid it well.”She said.

“Yeah you always think you see everyone, but feel free to believe anything that makes you sleep well.” I said not wanting to think about what she said; besides I know better he is nice to those that stand by him that all, he can worry also but it can never mean what she insinuated.

“Well it helps me sleep, that a billionaire might be in love with my BFF helps me sleep well.” She said collecting the plates from me.

“Well let's end that there I'm so tired, I want to call my sister before it slips through my mind.” I said

“Here's your phone.” Jessie said handing over the phone to me joining me on the king sized bed one of the specs of being in a VIP room.

I didn't want to tell my sister Sophia, she might be a year younger than I am, but she is so damn overprotective. I thought as the line was ringing.

“Hey sis, how are you?” Her sweet voice came over the phone.

“I'm okay, how are you?” I asked

“I’m good, a little bit tired but nothing a good rest won’t take care of.” She replied.

“Sorry about that, uuummm…. don't freak out but I'm kind of in the hospital.” I said

What happened sis, a hit and run I warned you bout crossing the road, you got shot? I've told you to stop being cold, you never listen, answer me don't you dare go silent after dropping that bomb.” she screamed over the phone and Jessie and I laughed so hard at her assumptions.

“It's not an accident you let imaginations run too wild. It’s just flu, and the doctor said that I'll be kept for observation for 2 days. I just wanted to tell you rather than have Jessie call you.” I explained in one breathe.

“Sorry I'm not there to kiss and hug you, don't stress yourself okay? Tell Jessie that it's okay to lock the doors of the hospital room, she shouldn't let you go out though I trust her to do that and more.” Sophia said laughing.

“I know the both of you, are my God sent personal caretakers.” I chided; “But I really wish you were here also, I miss you.” I said playing with the blanket.

“You should try returning home Mum misses you too though she will never act like it, but I'm sure deep down she does.” Sophia whispered touching a topic we avoid whenever we talk.

“You know why I can't come back, I can't just forget what she did to me, all I went through how she made my life a damn hell, sis you were there I made that promise not to look back, if I pass through one of her episodes again I might not be able to leave with just depression, you knew how hard it was to finally leave for Los Angeles three and half years ago.” I said trying to keep the memories away..

“Yeah I know so well, but she is a lot silent these days, maybe she feels that another piece of her is missing, she asked of you in her sleep, unconsciously she really misses you sis. She only goes back to her usual self when Sarah is here.” Sophia said.

“Yeah maybe she’s changing, but you said so yourself when Aunt Sarah is around she is not my mother, and I'm not coming back maybe when I get married, then just maybe. I said

“I understand, but I really need you at times, with Riley in uni I get lonely.” Sophia said sadly and I felt my eyes getting all teary.

“I'm sorry I left you there alone, I'll make it up to you if I can.” I replied trying not to sound hoarse

“Yeah don't worry its okay.” she muttered bitterly before changing the topic.

“Well how is that hot boss I keep seeing in the news, Claudio Moretti or something along that name?” she asked.

“Well my boss is fine, he was the one that brought me to the hospital after I fainted.” I said.

“And you still have a deep crush on him?” She teased.

“I don't have a deep crush it's just a little crush, and it's going to pass.” I retorted.

”Yeah it's going to pass and it hasn't since.” Jessie scoffed

“She never admits when she likes someone Jess, let's leave her be with her little tiny crush.” Sophia said referring to Jess.

I felt ganged up on.... “You guys stop ganging up on my love life, when you guys get a man give me advices not when you are as lonely as I am.” I replied them smirking looking at Jessie.

“Yeah right, you won that one well I give up, Sophia said while Jessie raised her hands up in surrender.

“How is Alex?” I said asking about our little brother Alexander.

“Your little brother is a heartbreaker, he doesn't have a girlfriend nor does he give girls second glance he says they are all weird, he reminds me of you. The way you didn’t pay attention to guys like Jessie did.

“I won't take offence at the last comment though; I knew he was going to be one handsome kid.” I said picturing him rejecting girls’ advances, I wish I could witness one though, I really miss him, I miss them all. I thought getting all teary about it.

“Well you should rest, I'm going back to work, please for once listen to the damn doctors Amanda promise me you will.” She pleaded.

”I promise you I will.” I said finally.

“Okay bye then love you, tell Jessie I miss her.” She said.

“She has heard, I love you too take care.” I said ending the call.

Jessie was doing something on her Laptop, work I guess she had to stay here with me instead of going to work. I was left with nothing to do.

I looked around the rooms noticing the flowers in the room, Claudio probably brought the flowers. My mind went back to what Sophia said; Mother hasn't really been a mom any child would envision for his/her self. She blames me for the death of my dad, at a point in life I lived it believing that I really killed him, it took a lot of work and therapy sessions paid by Jessie's dad that helped me out of it. I left home to run away from the pain and memories, yet Sophie said that she's changing and I know deep down she wants me to forgive mom and go back home.

She sent me birthday gift last year something that stopped since I was 9 years old. I lost both parents at the age 9 though it was only one that died, the other left me also. She just became a monster I hated myself and almost died because of the traumas.... But deep down I know my mom is still in there in the shell I see. I'd love to go home to a mom that hugs me when I get home, that asks how my workday as been, a mom that loves me as much as I love her not one that hurts me at every opportunity she gets.

Exhausted I closed my eyes to sleep, praying that my wish will come through.

Claudio's POV

I walked into the hospital room with flowers and two cups of coffee, they were they were both awake when I entered the room.

"Good morning ladies." I greeted giving the flowers to Amanda and the coffee to Jessie

"Good morning thanks for the flowers, I love them." Amanda said; "Jessie give me one of the coffee." She said turning to Jessie that was in the process of drinking the second coffee.

"What coffee, he gave them to me, ask him to get yours I'm drinking this one." she said taking a gulp of it.

Turning to face me with disbelief on her face. “You got coffee for me right? She is just mean because you didn't get her flowers like you got me.”

“The doctor said no caffeine for you, so I didn’t get you coffee.” I answered slowly hoping she would understand.

“Butttt...ttt I'm okay though, I should be given coffee.” She grumbled looking at Jessie like a kid that got her candy taken; “It's not fair that you guys get to drink coffee while I can't.”

I smiled at her tantrums, Jessie took her in are arms and was petting her.

I never got to see this super carefree side of her, she is always the respectful, cold and aloof PA I have, she jokes around with me but she was never this free, she never lets her guard down. She smiles, but the pain in her eyes doesn't really leave like it does when she is around Jessie. I was really worried when she passed out yesternight. I've never seen her so weak and small the office wears seemed to hide her vulnerability....

“Okay I need to work! I can't stay here doing nothing, please find something for me to do, anything at all switching back to serious mode. Amanda says after a comfortable silence.

“You are on bed rest for two to three days, and after you’re discharged you’re taking the rest of the week off. I said.

“But it's a working day I should be working not lazying about doing nothing she said.

“You are on leave for a week, I approved the letter sent to my email.” I told her.

“Well I didn't send any mail except someone else did.” she said turning to face Jessie who had her hands up.

“I sent it last night.” Jessie confessed dropping the now empty coffee cups to the bin.

“I didn't ask you to.” Amanda asked coldly looking at her.

“Well I did.” Jessie said equally pissed; “You are not going to work, neither are you going to do anything related to work in the hospital, and there is nothing you can do about it love.”” she finished patting Amanda's hand.

“I hate you Jessica Grace Martinez, and there is nothing you can do about it also.” Amanda retorted pouting.

Laughing at how cute they were behaving, I turned to Amanda that starting filling me on what things I should do in the office and what I shouldn't, whom to meet and so one I left the hospital by 9:00am and drove to the office.

Everyone was in their cubicle facing the computer, they raised there heads to greet me as I was going to the lift while some couldn't talk, being in a good mood I replied them but that ended by noon when I fired Amanda’s subtitute that was hired that morning she frustrated my damn soul, she was just so scared that there was a mistake in every little thing she did.

She almost cost me a deal before I finally fired her, everything was a mess without Amanda, her efficiency fitted mine perfectly I was currently in the conference room, the designing committee had to present something to me and so far I wasn't getting anything that could make me happy, the guy presenting the slides stopped and was done, he was looking at me with hands trembling, well he should be scared I just wasted 45 minutes of my time listening to the trash they designed for the new building they wanted to design for the Andrews.

“So is that all?” I asked the boy that presented it, he nodded I guess his voice deserted him.

“Well Mr Gerald I'm sure this is not the presentation you put together for me.” I asked turning to the Head of the designing committee. “And why is the intern giving a presentation for such a project, you teach him with other things not delicate stuffs like this, and Matthew when you told me you needed a job I really felt you were up to the task but what you presented just now is making me reconsider if I misjudged you.” I said to the boy that gave the presentation.

“What happened.” I asked Matthew.

“Sir I'm sorry I was only informed last night, I could have done better if I had time.” He answered afraid.

“Well I'm giving the both of you.” I said pointing to Matthew and the HOD. “Tomorrow morning to summit personal designs to me in this room 8:00am sharp... And tell the rest of the department to do the same, I want a well designed plan for every project we have before weekend everyone should get into it...” I said walking out of the office....

I dragged my tie feeling frustrated.

I was so buried in work that I didn't even notice that it was getting dark till the door to my office opened without a knock, without looking up I knew it was Aleksie.

“What are you doing here Aleksei?” I asked not looking up from the file.

“Well I heard someone scared the s**t out of his employees today and I'm hearing things about the pretty redhead being in the hospital.” he said grabbing a sit opposite me.

“Well the redhead has a name, it's Amanda Sei.” I said using the nickname he hates the most.

“I hate that name so stop, the boys I kept at the house said you took her to the hospital after she fainted in your arms, you caught her and rushed like a mad man Into the hospital, I got that from Maxwell, we had a fields day on that one.” He said mockingly.

“She fell ill after I took her to a party it's natural I check up on her and she fainted after I got there, what should I have done? Leave her there?” I asked him.

“You are really smart, but I think your high IQ is the reason for your low EQ.” he said smirking.

“I don't have time for your dramas Aleksie, I'm really busy.” I said going back to work.

“Well I just came to check on you, you scared the s**t out of the workers, just go meet her in the hospital if you miss her that badly.” He said getting up to leave.

“I don't miss her man, I'm starting to think she is your PA and not mine with the way you pay attention to the things that concern her.” I drawled.

“No way! I'm just so curious as to how long you can resist the urge to claim her, you obviously care about her but you are just so stubborn.” He said starting at me intently.

“Well if I like her it's my business and trust me I don't.” I deadpaned.

“Then tell me why you haven't been to the club for the last few months.” He asked smugly.

“I've been busy that has nothing to do with Amanda.” I persisted feeling a headache coming up.

“Well I'm off, you know where to find me if you want to confess. He said walking out.

Yeah bye Alexsei.” I said.

I spent an hour before going to the hospital to check up on Amanda by the time I got there it was past 11, she was asleep but Jessie was awake I just dropped the things I got for them and left so as not to wake her up.

I ate the food the house help left in the warmer while working till past 2 in the morning before I went to bed thinking bout what Aleksie keeps saying and what I feel. I care about her, I worry about her, I want her around Everytime I know I am falling for her, but I'm fighting it because no matter what happens, she deserves better than what I am. She deserves a man that isn't scared of commitment and love but those are the two things that scare the s**t out of me.

She deserves someone that doesn't have nightmares and depends on pills to sleep, she deserves someone that doesn't have blood on his hands not me. I would just hurt her because that's all I do to everyone I love.

Aleksei might be right about the me having feelings for Amanda part but he is definitely wrong about me Claiming her, I don't deserve her and I will never be able to forgive myself if I hurt her with the secrets I keep....