26 LILY Both men appeared subdued when I showed up at their front door. They met me in the foyer, grins on both their faces, but something felt…off even after I hugged them hello, lingering more with Grey than Blaine. And I’d thought Grey and I had made major headway in our…relationship outside s*x, but he seemed preoccupied. We enjoyed a glass of wine, Grey his whiskey, in the living room while chatting a bit, and Blaine wasn’t big on eye contact. Not that he ever had been, but he seemed more introspective than I’d seen before. Grey watched him as closely, and I could sense he had the same urge to wrap his best friend up in his arms as I did. The man loved Blaine. Thoroughly. I yearned to see Blaine’s eyes lighter, free of whatever haunted him, same as my heart ached for the unrequi

