The Boundaries of Love

The End of a possible World

It was my placement day that day. I was all time stuck with her getting her live location where she reached. The placement day took quite a long time. It started from 9 of the morning till 9 of the night. She was in the city, and I was dying to meet her. It was one of the most beautiful days of the entire year. She was the first person whom I wanted to tell about my placement session. So I called our familiar friend and told her to meet in the restaurant. I was hungry since morning. My body was shivering as it was cold outside. As I entered, I saw her. The happiness of getting placed doubled on seeing her. My life was now running on a roller coaster. It can't get more beautiful. She came to travel and explore my city. Our familiar friend was busy because of classes the next day, so she asked me to accompany Sneha as it was my off. Everything was happening so swimmingly like the script of some movie. I captured several pictures with her to make a plethora of unforgettable memories with her.

She went back to her place. I hinted at her about my feelings towards her. She understood. And then everything changed. My world collapsed, and so my heart. She started ignoring me. She was now my obsession. This world didn't happen to be one of those parallel worlds where my love story was going to get completed at this point in my life.

One of the reasons for her not to accept me was her horrible experience. No, matter how much she felt, I was perfect. I was still a defect. She said that I don't have any experience in this love thing. So, I won't understand it. When you are in a relationship, you need to think about the other person, and right now, she wants to give her self-love. She wants to be in love with her.

No matter how much you try to escape these boundaries. They'll somehow come into existence. With those plethoras of memories I created with Sneha, it became difficult for me to act like ok I'll be ok. Nothing can get normal once you're in love with someone. The worst part is that you can't unlove them. The feelings can fade. But you can't unlove them. Part of you'll always love them.

Now the only thing which was keeping us glued even in this long-distance is removed. I got myself blocked, which Sneha did without any hesitation. I don't know if that long conversation was all normal for her. All those memories we created were just a regular part of her life. Maybe I was hardwired to fall in love with someone like her, but she wasn't for me.

And with this Check and Mate. Game over.

I'm still chasing the thoughts on how to get me unblocked or even trying to make this world one of those multiverses where not just I and she lives, a world where we exist.